what am i up to instead of working.. heheh

i am bored.
i have things to do before i go off for my maternity- handover, manco paper, appraisal etc etc
my lists of books (yes, i am guilty of reading during office.. :p) sux rite now.

and now i am reduced (lol! demeaning nye bunyi!) to harass people in FB. wakakakaka

and now, even FB isn't enticing enough.

i better get back to my office workload.

haihh~

how i am still shocked with the world.

i received this funny email from an ex-colleague. its about the journey of s.perms.

image 1-
they were racing.
the leading s.perm says "ok guys, lets go!"
second s.perm says "first one there's half a baby!" (me: good motivation!)

image 2-
still travelling.
another s.perm asks "are we going the right way?"

image 3-
leading s.perm turns to the pack and says "i didn't think it should be this long..."
another s.perm asks "where the hell are we??"

image 4-
two men cuddling after s.ex.


...i rolled on the floor laughing my as.ses off.. deng funny.
then, i fwded to my colleagues.

suddenly, i received a reply from my work NEIGHBOR- "this happens to me all the time"

urgh.. its suddenly NOT so funny now.. i try to be open.. but its still kinda 'ewwww' (although i know this guy is a Bi.

cant help but being nosy...

i listen to hitz.fm every morning but since the 2 morning crew DJs are away on leave, and the backup crew (sorry, but seriously...) sounds quite annoying.. i listen to mix instead.
so, this morning, i was listening to this morning-whats-its-called: Dilly Di.lemma kot. something like that. Basically, people gives this Dilly their problems and they pick up calls who may want to offer their advice/opinion.

this morning, the dilemma was on this girl. She asked her ex-bf to pack up her things in London cause she said she only trusted him. then when she receives her stuff, she noticed that most of her 'valuables' (i.e. ManU jersy, MU mug) went missing. She suspected the ex or the ex's current gf as the culprit. She confronted the ex, he denied. she insist on getting hold of the current gf number so that she can ask her.

DIlly thinks her case is innocent.
JD thinks she wants to hook up with the ex again.
Most of the callers thinks she should move on and not to accuse/ suspect these 2 ppl.

IMO, she's no innocent. i think she (yes) wants to hook up with the ex and wants to know about the new gf. come on.. Jersy? Mug? that is what you considered valuable? ok, i am not a football fan. i may not get the whole fanatic memoribilia whatever. but, if you think the deng things were valuable, why didnt you pack them when you were returning to Malaysia in the 1st place? kan? looks to me, that she didnt think it was that important until she asked her ex to pack and send it to her. lol! rekindle old flames, perhaps?
She should definitely NOT contact the current gf. (i dont think the gf would like to talk to her! much less being confronted on her missing stuffs!) anyway, like other callers seemed to suggest, move on already! You'll be much happier.

lol! what a nosy fatso i am! :p

Mak ai, Jelai tu amek jauh.

yesterday, me and family plus my PIL went to a wedding kenduri in Jelai. They're relatives of mine- from my dad's side. BangKalang (we call him)- the father of the groom really looks like my dad. i mean, seriously. they can pass off as siblings! where in actual my dad was his uncle. it was kinda strange looking at him. its like my dad is still around. the same grin. huh~~ miss my dad lohh.

anyway, Jelai is soooooo far! its like a far far away kingdom. hahahaha sorry, if anyone is from there.
i remembered when i was a kid, i didnt like to go there. solely because of the distance. its like, you sleep, you wake up and you sleep again and  you wake up again, and still you havent arrived yet. not even waking up to a view!

all that crap paragraph up there, all just want to tell you i went to a great distance for a kenduri.

another part of my story is.. how greatful and proud i am to have such a wonderful guy as a husband. (aik? camne from kenduri leh sampai ke ikan??)

i am a ....hmmm.. what do you call those people yang x amek peduli sgt pasal pengorbanan orang and is in their own world- looking at their own comfort? ohh...yes, SELFISH.

well, albeit embarassing, yes. i am selfish. unless it suits my comfort, i dont usually go to kenduris.. especially those far far away and the journey involves routes with no telephone signal. (go figure!)

BUT, my hubs has this policy with kenduri kawen sedara mara.. he takes it VERY seriously. especially where in this case, the relative (mind you- MY side of relative) came from his far far away home and blessed ours (Kakmah's recently- but he never missed any of our kenduris, even when it was clear he was sick. and on motorcycle some more!). i am very grateful i have relatives like these. but, me being me, i dont usually go out from my comfort zone and voluntarily go there, you know? i am that shallow.

but i am glad my hubs insisted to go (even with the packings and movings and da di das)..
and today, eventhough my body aches and i am terribly sleepy, i am very glad i went. i had a great time. despite the raining. i trully enjoyed my day yesterday.

thanks Bangkalang and KakLang for inviting.
thanks my dear husband for insisting and driving.
thanks my PIL for accompanying and babysitting.

i am suddenly proud of myself.

Choc. Moist cake recipe

serupa as why i put in the famous amo.s cookies previously, this is an attempt for me to NOT loose the deng recipe (again).

FYI, before i give birth and move in to Bangi (no oven there yet), i would like to say good bye properly to our dearly beloved oven.. so, im baking my all time favo- this very moist chocolate cake and ikan is baking his lasagna (no mention on his long forgotten yummy cinamon rolls).

so, here it is:-

1) The Cake

250g butter
1 1/2 cup flour
1 1/4 cup custor sugar
1 cup milk
2 eggs
1/2 tea spoon baking powder
1 teaspoon vanila
1 1/2 teaspoon bicarbonat soda
1 cup cocoa powder

Pour everything in mixing bowl
Stir ~15 minutes
Bake for 45 mins at 180 deg.

2) The Topping

1/2 bar cooking choclate
1/2 cup fresh milk
1 tea spoon butter
1 tea spoon sugar

additional- plenty of choc rice (i am such a conversative person and i insist to maintain this in its deco :) )

What do you think of flirting?

honestly, if you ask me dead on, like rite now, i would say i'm cool with it. as long as both sides are aware that they are no serious intentions. i mean, there must be a sense of detachment when both parties flirt. it ends there.

i guess i am ok with ikan flirting with other females. i trust him, not that i encourage him though ;p (i get jealous often... :) )
i know ikan has no qualms me flirting with other males. he knows i dig him a lot. hehehe
and, although i am against infidelity and what nots, im cool with married ppl flirt with other ppl.
i mean, light flirt, ok? those definitely NOT involving touching and giving outrageous remarks.

lets face it. flirting and being the object of flirtatious gestures gives pleasure. a moment of feeling desirable.
BUT! it has to stop there. it wont be a hint of 'pleasure' if you take it to the next level. nope. sorry. thats just asking for trouble.

i think it is how you handle them, i guess. like i said, it should not get serious, i.e. the object of your flirtatious gestures should not be in your mind for more than a second. it turns to dangerous territory if you allow even a fraction of what was supposed to be a flippant remark and treat it with some importance.

panjangnye intro...

the main story- what if your boss wants you to flirt a little with a person at work? would you be ok with it? would you resign?
to add another tidbit to the situation... what if your boss tu is also your long time friend?

a colleague of mine is resigning her post because her boss (and super long friends) reportedly asked her to ask this guy (old and married) for dinner. threesome of course. 'she' is single and available.

now, do you think the boss here is solely pimping her? OR do you think this boss thinks (as a friend) that this girl should have some fun? (I do not condone extra marital affais, albeit some does)

i personally wont ask my subordinate to do this. nope.
but during office hours, i dont see any harm in smiling and being nice to this guy. he doesnt fall under those 'stupid' people i hate to 'yes' to.

well, this may be too presumptuous of me. i am not and never was in her position. i think i can understand her fear. but i dont think resigning is the answer.

now you know how open i am, huh?

on Hailey.

so seldom i get to write on Hailey (ye ke??)

its because of the jinx. seriously. :p

but, i have to tell you this one. i find it soo cute (well, everything about her to me is cute!)
Hailey loves to wake her sister up.

she is the earliest riser between all them Bs. basically, when i switch on the lights every morning, Hailey is the first one to open her eyes (sometimes, earlier than her dad :p).
so, every morning- especially now that its the school holidays, i will deligate my waking up task to this girl. man! she really understands! she'll be like look up to me and as though menerima arahan yang penting, starts to go to our bedroom (if by then she already followed me to the kids' room to iron my clothes) and start poking her sister. She will target Aqish first, i guess less resistance compared to her kakak Hannah.

And even when she is still mamai from just being awake, she will still try and poke her sister with half opened eyes. huhuhu. maybe we should record this. B-)

ok. there you go. know a bit about my 3rd daughter. She's going to be a kakak soon. oh~~

so tired..

we've begun our packing to move and what a weekend!
(i thought we have very little things to pack- i mean, we intend to leave several furnitures there and some are even fixed ones- meaning lagila x yah punggah memunggah)

BUT! (Thank God i have helpful in laws- insisting to assist us start packing up)

after a tiring weekend, they (my PIL) said that not even half is done. (seriously?? banyakkah bende2 di rumah kami yg kosong itu?)

so, we might have to speed things up a lil bit.

clothes- 60% done (only the ones we need to wear left)
toys- 90% done
kitchen utensils- 90% done (left- pots & pans, we are left with plastic plates and spoons for the rest of the month :( )
books- done (unsurprisingly this was the first to be boxed!!!)
Kids' room- 90% done
Master bedroom- 90% done
bilik bibik- 100% NOT done
Toilets- not started yet but dont think will need much time
Perhiasan bagai- done

left to accomplish:-
Dining table to disemble (makan bersila je la fatso sorang nih hehehe)
katil bibik to disemble
wrap all shelves (4 je)
Curtains- unhook and wash and re-hook
Label all big furnitures to be moved- refrigerator (both), washing machine, kids bed, kids wardrobes + shelves, bibik's bed, dining table, all shelves, recliner, bedroom TV, boxes, carpets

today is 5th Dec, second week of December. to finish up all packing within this week.
weekend- beli cat
11th Dec. (w3)- clean the frigging house and touch up (paint) what nots.
18th Dec (w4)- upload to mudah.
26th Dec. (w5)- clean bangi house, paint bilik aqish (painter), move in mid week (~28th/29th)
2nd Jan. masuk spital.
3rd Jan bersalin. woooooo~~~

my God! gile packed! :p wish me luck~~~

InsyaAllah we'll be Bangi citizens.

we're letting our condo, partially furnished. anyone have an extra functioning refrigerator we can buy to replace ours?

i'm soo gonna miss our home. but what to do? we (I) cant manage 4 kids and hopping up and down the elevator. not even if i try hard enough to find a bibik. i'd rather find a landed house to rent. even if i cant find a bibik, at least i wouldnt have the issue of getting the kids (cases of sleeping) into the house should ikan goes outstation (his wretched kursuses).

i guess we'll be having a goodbye party soon... i think (boleh ke with my condition and the packing and the advertising and the bla bla bla)

...and the sleepless nights begin.

Aydeen (insyaAllah) is starting his kung fu lessons already.
Gosh, i wish he could time his schedule to stop from 10pm to 5.30 am.

please, baby. help mommy here.

*sighs* 1 month 2 weeks to go...

i had this weirdest dream...

i dreamt about one of my close friend, and it had something to do with the guy i had a secret crush on as briefly told in here.

funny but i hate emotional dreams. they just make you restless.

anyway, in the dream, i didnt like this friend and she didnt like me but in the girls being girls way- i.e. benci senyap senyap. then, this whatever event came up and we had to exchange gifts and i dont know how the dream ended with me being confronted with this friend- she showed me some sort of nasty message signed by me. and in the dream, i was like this clueless person- "what about it? who gave it to you?" and showed genuine surprise when saw my name as the sender.

to cut things short, this friend confronted that she had this negative feelings towards me after receiving the message and thats why all the animosity started. and i told her that 'i thought you hated my guts cause i liked the same guy you did, although i didnt expect you to find out, no one knew'.

and we lived happily ever after. (didnt go that far yet but we did patch things up and hugged)

now, why would i have a dream like that? oh, the emotional part is during the confrontation- both were hysterically crying- girls... what do you expect?

dont you just hate those kinda dreams? cant a dream be like always calm, peaceful and pleasurable? i dont have these unpleasant kinds often but when they visit me, i get restless and disturbed. i once or twice dreamt ikan left me- died (nauzubillah) or the unmentionable-C word (nauzubillah) and i end up waking up in sobs. but i liked the feeling when ikan hugs me and tells me it was just a dream, afterwards. but nonetheless, its still bothersome.

honestly, i like sleeping without ANY dreams. just a blank black space. ~~~ahhh bliSS

kongratulasi untuk dindaku

my lil sister- kakmah, tied the knot last weekend. congratulations. she looked soo pretty!

funny, them. Although they met just recently, i.e. like a year and a half ago, if not mistaken, they actually 'met' like 20 years ago. hahah kinda nice to write a romantic fiction based on them, huh? (ewww, i'll pass)

anyway, Radi (my bro in law) is the son of my dad's BFF. too bad they didnt hook up when my dad was still around. it would've been splendid, the two best friends celebrating the joining of families, i can easily picture Ust Jamil and my dad standing side by side, smiling proudly.. they were best friends since high school, if not mistaken. huh~~ *wipes away early tears*

so, back to the story, they met somewhat 20 years ago in London, when we were returning to Malaysia from Canada and my dad visited Ust Jamil and family in London. Fate, that. the two of them (the 2 ustazes) sent to overseas at the (almost) same time. Thank God too, cause we get to go to London! (all i remembered that time was- London was such a drab place. its almost always raining or fogging or some sort). here is kakmah and her husband, Radi in London long time ago.


yours truly was somehow not in pic. hmm.. shopping i guess.. :)

 May both of you have happiness and a wonderful marriage for the rest of your lives- like our parents!

birthday of princess busyra today!

pity Busyra. its her birthday today but we didnt manage to do anything for her- no cake, no goodies to give her friends and no presents.

we do plan to do something next week at her nursery but if she is a tad older, she might take exception that mommy and daddy didnt do something on her day. (mommy's excuse) its just that i am quite busy planning and handling her makmah's kenduri thingys. not lah mommy here is the 'orang kuat' but the kepohchi on the hantaran and give away packets.

we're going back to seremban today. hopefully we can at least celebrate with a cake (too bad BR xde kat seremban, at least mommy and daddy can make up for lack of effort by giving a super icecream cake- both aqish and busyra are super fans of BR!)

as for no presents- lol! i have to appologize to her when she is older and understands money. money seemed to be kering this month- due to my outrageous dental bill (dont let me start on my company's benefit!) and make up (required by my new boss) & the cleansing (required by my home boss- ikan) purchased last month. i think, these sudden expenditure totaled to ~rm1.5k. gile kopak mama! you see??

anyway, luv! Happy Birthday.
Mama pray that you and your sisters be anaks yang solehah and berjaya dalam hidup.

for her cake next week, insyaAllah.

why the previous post.

i am those weird people who liked to read and re-read and re-read what i write. then silently comment on them but never had the effort and energy to actually amend them, well.. unless it was a very BIG embarassing mistake..

there. tu je nak tambah on the previous post. Glad some like to read my ramblings. hahah i do too. wakakaka (weird mode on)

i suddenly remembered a memory on being weird. i am not scared nor ashame to admit that i am. its like, everybody is weird in their own way, right? (RIGHT! dont you dare contradict! you may have at least one habit that may rise an eyebrow or two.. hehe)

it wasnt a significant memory though. when i was in smap, i had this secret crush on this one fellow. dont know why i 'minat' him in the first place, other than he is VERY fair. hahaah. oh, and shy, i guess. thats another thing about me. i tend to have secret crushes on shy guys (ok, 2 je secret crushes :p. only one ended up shackled to ngeee~~ :) )

anyway, i dont think this guy ever knew i liked him during my 5 years in smap- crush lasted for 4 years only. heh. it ended when i gave my 'autograph' book for him to jot something . he has VERY nice handwritting. (ooh, btw, most smapian girls know this- buku autograf. hik hik embarassing gile bile ingat balik!!)
anyway, when he returned my book, i was only looking forward for him to like write a half pager thing, saying maybe 'good  luck' or some other goodbye cliches. Instead, he wrote about 2-3 pages kot.. kinda gurly, huh? lol! but, he did mentioned in one of his many many sentences, that he thought i was weird. he wanted to tell me why but then he wrote, nevermind. (wtf?)

yes, aisyah was quite the vindictive-pehal-ko kinda girl back then. ok, vindictive sounds so harsh. no, what i was then, like any homely girl that age who was just given a negative remark by her secret crush was devastated! but i didnt tore up his pages though. i wasnt that heartbroken. but it did end my crush on him. darn.. such a pretty face. hik hik. (babe ikan, you wouldnt mind i put this up right?)

but, thinking back, being weird is not so bad. its part of who you are. and, if your partner loves you regardless (or because...), then all the better.

cheers~

i have this outrageous idea...

its kinda embarassing. but i somehow feel that it might be a good idea.
maybe not for money- i dont think so. but for my own fullfilment.

what, you ask?

hik hik hik.

i want to write something. i mean really write. (ok, honestly the idea was to write a book)
i got this idea from my bro's blog- like a year ago, he mentioned that he plan to write a book before he dies.
what a great idea. write a book before i die. i always like writting, kucar kacir as it is... i once have this same insane thought when i was in primary. those were the times i like reading malay short stories in magazines. i remembered i wanted to submit my story but never had the gut.

(selit jap) GUT, i found is overated. i think it has to do with 'what do you got to loose?' right? i mean, back then when i was still 12 yo and know nothing of the world, im scared of everything. now, looking back, i wish i wasnt that kid- semua bende nak takut. well, that is another story. you gain confidence, happiness and gut with each passing experience in life. whatever horrible/ wonderful it may be.

back to my writting. i want to write something really from my heart. i dont care if it eventually involves romance- in view that its my line of reading interest nowadays.. but that is certainly NOT the main issue. i like emotion driven stories. how do i get that?

maybe i should start a new blog with a new pen name. LOL! this is soo funny! should i go with it?

oh, before you begin to wonder, i prefer writing my stories in english- i know its not up there in the writters standard level. not even a good level, but i feel strange expressing in proper malay. i mean..

"Aisyah termenung jauh. Fikiran diulit oleh memori semalam. Semalam, di mana ayahnya masih bernyawa dan berkudrat memberi nasihat. Ayah yang ditakuti namun dihormati dan disayangi.."

LOL! i cant. not only my sentences are not berbunga. it sounded like sh*t.
before i know it, ill be writting like those female malay novel authors i hate to read. how do you get to put in humor and wit into those kind of sentences?

sedihh.

it has been a while since me and the family visited Mines.. walaupun depan rumah je...
anyway, me and aqish's favourite place to singgah everytime we go there is G.ramedia. (Ikan's challenger)

last nite, we went there to search some sticker papers for kakmah's impending kenduri.. and we had the shock of our lives! (ok lah, xde la shock but suprised, nonetheless)

G.ramedia is closing! sobs sobs!
all the books are already in boxes, most stationaries are discounted up to 70%.. some books are discounted up to 90%! ohhh darn! (on the closing, not on the discounted items)

anyway, you guys, if you want to go there for the last time, theres some interesting stationaries there and cheap.
xde mood aa. sedihs. EXCEPT! kalau die ganti dgn Kino or Book Excess or Payless Books. ha, then i would definitely celebrate. janganlah P.opular! epic fail, ok?! heh :p 

songs and daughters.

i like songs too- what else is new??
i usually like to listen and sing the month's favourite.. like always.. untill i got bored of 'em. (so like my daughter- aqish too)

my favo this month is T-Pain's 5 oclock in the morning. (thank god aqish x paham what it is about heheh..)

anyway, while i was busy membuat hantaran untuk kakmah, boleh lak aqish cakap 'ma, asek2 lagu tu je mama nyanyi. tukar la'

haha.. nampaknye my fav song rite now doesnt suit her (we share the (almost) same songs)

reading hiatus lagi... :(

so I'm finally driving to work nowadays... I'm terribly heavy! but alls well.

the one thing i miss about my commute to work using LRT is my reading. thats the only time i can read without being interrupted. now, no more :( . i dont read as much at home now- too much of B attentions required. i only get to read when the abah prohibit them Bs from using the iPad. time tu je lah mama dapat mengiBook...

nonetheless.. its okay. i've finished most of my favourites pon.
im into movies plak nih. i know its kinda dangerous but its less boring if i can watch movies during the drive home.. 1 jam lebih ok, nak sampai umah... x ke patut tengok movie? hehe

Bye, love! will be missing you tremendously. hope to gain re-acquaintance during my pantang  :p

banyak woo... nak try nora roberts and nicholas sparks plak during pantang nih... semua yg beli time serigala jahat ari tu.. weeee~~~~

on this pregnancy no. whatever..

When people ask me what are the differences between this pregnancy (ehem ehem..insyaAllah..) with the previous ones… I usually don’t have a bullet point answer. The one thing I really notice is that I’ve become this vain person as told before in here.

Now, come to think of it.. there’s one other difference. I am not as sleepy as before. Ke, not yet? No, definitely not like before. I think in the last 3 pregnancies, I was sleepy by the time I hit lunch time- as early as the 4^th month! And I remembered I always sleep during my prayers break (I usually do 2 in 1..). Not this time though! B-)

I only noticed this today cause… contrary to what I just babbled up there, I am really sleepy rite now- BUT! due to loads of work though. Not cause of the hormones. I feel tired but not to the extent that I can hardly open my eyes.

GAWD! So tired and cant wait for this work to settle. Hopefully it’ll end smoothly at the end and I can expect some sugars by the time I get back from my maternity ;-)

nice to be those historical romance characters..

those having servants to do everything tu... basically yang kaya raya tu la.

there are times when i read em books, i envy the way they have all the time in the world to do what they please.
i am unfortunately those who dont seem to have enough time and energy to for a little indulgence ( i mean, indulgence that i wish i have on a frequent basis.. :) )

i envy that they can only enjoy time with their spouse cause all the boring chores are done by servants.
i envy their children sleep in a separate room.
i envy their time walking in the gardens and woods, basically their quiet time with nature.
i envy their oh-so-wonderful way of saying things.. very proper.
i envy their gentlemanlyness.. and ladylyness... (yes, i do create my own vocabulary)

but what i envy most rite now is they seemed to have plenty time with the spouses. without the interuption of their kids. dont get me wrong, i love me kids to death. but sometimes... especially at night, i would love to have the bedroom all to ourselves.

you know, not only the you know what. but sometimes, its hard to find a time for both of me and ikan to just talk and do nothing in bed. usually, the kids will join us. and that means that the conversation will be about them. and whenever both of us tried to talk between ourselves, they managed to stir back the conversation to them.

see... i dont have enough time. i need more time. i need time for me hubs, me kids, me ibadahs, me hobbies..

note to self: x baik mengeluh..

...

I miss him.

I miss him.

I miss him.

I’m wretched without him.

Ohh hormones! Its Friday, for goodness sake! Its supposed to be merry!

gossip artis plak.. for the first time.

i just cant help it. im obsessed with Anniston's love interest. sebab utamanya is because i hate brangelina and infidelity and homewrecker and all that.

actually, it started as hatred to brangie je but after (again... my reading gets the better of me.. whahaha) reading What I Did For Love by SEP, i was really looking forward to when Anniston finds her devilish handsome sonofagun and live happiliy ever after... just like the book.

honestly, before this, i never heard of Justin Therox.. but seriously???? i cant help it. he is one handsome devil! way to go jen!!!
between pitt and therox, i vote therox to be 10 times HOTter than pitt, :p
see...

ooo.. btw, have anyone watched Horrible Bosses yet? deng funny... and surprisingly sexy Anniston was sooo different!

hahahha terasa macam blog gosip artis. but no, saje nak letak gambo therox yg hensem giles...
hahahah kalau aku tambah mata therox yg harem cun gile tu cam ikan, ade yg nak baling aku ngan stapler x? hehehe :)

how far do you believe in the 'gangguan jin'

I am NOT boasting in any way. I do believe that some cases, yes, malays-unfortunately do face this problem, I blame the deng media in this country for exposing the act of ‘bomoh’ and all that crap to the rakyat. I mean, ok, they are there. But you don’t have to popularize them, it just makes some people having ideas in their heads.

Anyway, on this topic, I have a bunch of things to say, voicing out my opinions but I don’t want to raise my blood pressure today..

There’s one thing though I would label stupid-you-got-to-be-joking-me… those claiming a person being utterly snobbish is due to gangguan jin. Really??? Someone can be excused for being snooty? You treat a person like she’s a frigging vermin, even though she is your maid- a human being worked her asses off for your comfort (oo, which by the way you are not paying her salary pun…), and your boorish behavior is dismissed just because you are not yourself?

I don’t care whether you are a family member or not, or you have such a high education background.. its still stupid.

A snob is a snob by choice. Like other sins, you yourself are responsible for how you conduct yourself. Tensen jin2 asek2 dipersalahkan. Jatuh tangga, jin kacau, kejam kat another human being, sebab jin, lampu rosak- jin… GISH! Give them a break already. Be responsible of your own self!

Oh.. I don’t simply despise people (well, I try not to…) I understand some people make the wrong choice, as long as they learn from it and humbled by it, I don’t care that much. But this is too much. Ada sebab ke jadi sombong?

PS: this is not from my own experience. Its just a story from the victim. Imagine, I myself is being emotionally afflicted by this person’s snobbishness.. can you imagine the poor girl yang dianggap vermin itu?

Its very wrong for another human being to make another human being feel less human.

inappropriate for the guys (well, except for ikanbabe)

Warning awal2.. this is kinda disgusting for some.. so if you tend to be a visualize sort of person, please refrain yourself from further reading this post.

Kene buat disclaimer : I am writing this is because to enlighten those in the dark and a reminder to me as well J.

Its about our undies, ladies.

So, I think everyone would know the difference between wearing ugly undies and sexy ones. The sexy ones just makes you feel sexier and more confident, heheh I think ;-)

Anyway, do you know that wearing sexy undies, especially t.hongs are very comfortable during pregnancies? Ok, in my case, I had endured 3 c-sects and sometimes my scar itches or its just not comfortable when I wear normal ones.

(FYI, I cataloged my undies as- normal (hmm… how to illustrate?...), t.hongs/ t.angas and grandma undies)- Yes, I have all 3 kinds.

Normal- I wear them in normal- those serious days bla bla bla.

T.hong/t.anga- I wear them most of the time now as it makes me walllahhhhh B-)

Grandma- these are the ones yg cover your tummy tuh, which I spare for my previous pregnancies and pantang.

GISH! I was sooo wrong then! YOU SHOULD NOT use grandma undies during pregnancies sebab wearing the sexy ones are much much more comfortable! (I just hope the shape wouldn’t be ruined..)

It is much nicer to my scars! And definitely it does not suffocate my tummy.

No wonder, when I told kaklong (my cousin) that ‘oops, I would need to stock up my grannies for my pregnancy’ (during that 1^st trimester), she gave me this look. Disclaimer lagi- she has 4 kids and all c-sect, like moi.

So, for those in the dark like me, try it, if you haven’t already. It really makes a different to your day. (yelah, kan time pregnant ni, you need all the comfortable measures you can find J )

Cheers~

experience carrying a boy.

i had a terrible tooth ache for the last 2 weeks. i was literally kicking and swearing in the office (aku da warning awal2 to them that i tend do dont-give-a-f*** when i am pregnant... :| ).

at last, i went to see the dentist near my office (since my normal dentsit is in serdang and her schedule is full that day...). bloody! it costed me rm350 for a stinking filling aja! but that was not the main problem pon.. the main problem was with my right bottom wisdom tooth... and this mahal doctor said due to me being pregnant, he cant extract the thing as he needs to x-ray me etc etc... and i asked for the cost.. guess?? RM1,500 for tooth extraction ,people!
anyway, i ended up with some antibiotics and paracetamol for the aching...(plus the filling for another unrelated tooth...)

so, a week passed and still my tooth hurts like the devil! it gets worst when ikan brought us to genting and the kids cant get fun cause mommy here cant go outside to the cold cause mommy's tooth hurts.

i end up 'lantaklah... gi je lah cabut!' as an emergency case at my serdang dentist.
boy, was she cool!!
she was so confident that she was confused with the x-ray issue. her concerns were just that i might not tolerate the surgery pain.. cause she cant give me other than paracetamol too.. and i was like, 'xpe doctor. i rather endure 1 day of excruciating pain than a week long annoying-and-berdenyut2-pain'.
And... 30 mimnutes later, the SOB is gone from me mouth. BUT! what a pain it was when the numbness subsided! menitis air mata den!

LOL! this is soo off topic. Anyway, i met with my gynae yesterday and she said that this is one of the dugaan carrying a boy. They take away your calcium like no one's business. :)

So ladies.. who havent carried a boy yet.. Make extra sure you have plenty of additional calcium in you! (it gets worst during nak beranak- where the back ache is OMG!, says her...)

tats!  

me, the lil red reading hood..

So, I met with the wolf @ serdang.

It was mag-ni-fuh-cent! The smell when first entering the hall was like the euphoria I felt when I stepped into ikea. It was, seriously.

No words can describe! I bought a book by SEP which I already have but because the one I have is a bit wear (favorite pick for random reading) and BECAUSE ITS FREAKIN EIGHT BUCKS. And I also found few of those I haven’t owned yet from SEP for also rm8!! B-) I loiiikkeeee.

A special thank you to my babyyyy for bringing me there on their first day- that was last Friday, everyone, hoyehhh!!

Anyway, for those who like books (not to mention LURVEE), go there! Ample of parking space. Frequent shuttle busses (no, it wasn’t inconvenient at all, I say!) and clean- this especially the toilets J.

If I wasn’t sick in my bed the last 2 days during my mc, I surely had gone there again and again..

I hope they would be using MAEPS again next year. J ngeeeee~~~~~~

eww..

Camne one of my traffic sources was from a p0*n site?????

Ewwww ewww ewwww

another of Steve Jobs.

Again, this is all due to the book- Hot Shot and none due to his contribution to Apple.

Deng, I feel like a sad ending to a good novel. RIP.

i am definitely not fit for the job...

For background, I work in Product Development under the Sales & Marketing Division for my bank. It didn’t started out as a dept under S&M but somehow rather (which I understand and fully agree) the dept is sucked into the Sales Division. Basically developing products for the sales people to sell..

And you know la, the traits for being a relationship manager (they call themselves these days…).. i.e. sales people. Always charming, kissing Ses and stuff..

But, I just couldn’t, you know?

(no, I am not doing sales but the culture of being customer friendly must be applied to all in the division..)

Heck, if someone is being seriously stupid, xde koje aku nak ikut je.

And, being bitchy pregnant didn’t help either. So, instead of being a dotty little thing, smiling and yess’ing to everyone, I held my freakin stance and have my word. Lantaklah kalau kau x setuju.

Ok, cerita die senang je. For the last 3 months of my pregnancy, I asked the Admin manager if there is a parking space in the building I can subscribe to for only 3 months. The manager seemed accommodating and understanding.

The stooopod parking officer however, didn’t. If there is indeed no parking space for my request, just say so.

There’s no need to penalise me for other tenants refused to surrender their parking card with the same request of temp parking.

Elok2 I have to pay rm400, tetiba this freaking guy is asking me rm700, fearing that I will continue my subscription even after the 3 months ended. Even, after I told him that I don’t intend to pay the monthly fee when I go off my maternity and definitely will surrender it (I mean, kalau I x surrender, you will forfeit my card deposit, kan????) I mean, how much of security do you want?

But, I suspect, this is a typical male being controlling.. saje nak tunjuk ‘I-control-every-freakin-thing’. Bloody! I don’t NEED the parking dumb S!

Hahaha. Terlari dari tajuk..

My point was to say- I sucked in being polite (kiss Ser) to the stupidest people. Hence, I am definitely not the job for Sales.

(I know, I know, this is a bad trait as you need to treat ALL people nice, even the stupid ones.. but really???) ok lah, I’ll try harder, demit!

baking and packing 40+ cookie packets..

Is tiring indeed!

so, whats with the new look?

(gambar xde kene mengene.. just saje nak letak gambo busyra tgh nak bangun tido... :) )

Nothing. I’m just bored with the old one. No fancy gizmos added tho.. x reti, seriously.

Nyway, what am I up to this week?

Lots of baking (cookies) and nursing…

Its aqish’s birthday last Sunday and this Friday (tomorrow…) she’ll be celebrating it with her tadika friends..

Very simple yet time consuming la preparations kali ni.. mostly because we want to accommodate (yet filter) party pack requests from the birthday girl herself. So, she wanted cookies (pass), chocolate milk yg kids tu (pass), crown etc (x pass), marker and small whiteboard (x pass ofkos!), Cadbury chocolates yg kecik2 tu (pass), banana (pass tapi x muat plastic bag… so dropped last minute), spec mata hitam (x pass).

Hehehe.. berangan cukup anak den sorang nih… :p

And then she wanted me to bake her a ‘Hello Kitty’ birthday cake (deng Youtube!!!) When I told her I don’t know how to do it, you know what she suggested? Honestly??

‘Ma, kita pergi beli kertas dia la ma.. kat tesco ada kot. Mama cuba tanya yang macam polis tu (i.e. jaga)’

‘Tak pun kita cari kat kedai buku, Ma…’

By this time, aku rasa die macam paham kewujudan ‘sugar sheet’ (eh, ni ke panggil die?).

So, my end game would be to create a ‘Hello Kitty’ logo and tempah one from Secret Recipe..

I don’t know whether I have the kudrat for cooking other menus or not. Leave it to Aqish to request Nasi Ayam, Ayam Goreng Mama and Sausage. Not that much tapi at the same time Hailey is not feeling well rite now and she likes to melepek with me.. basically restricting my movements a bit..

Last night we were packing her cookies for her friends and now Busyra is excited for her birthday! She wants a Barbie (what else…) logo. Shishhh… daughters! J

rules for the kids...#1

So, I am reading this book by Shannon Stacey- Exclusively Yours (romance la apalagi…)

 

Anyway, I like this rule (one of the parent character in the book) stand by with her kids-

 

‘You do the crime in public, you do time in public..’

 

Nice, isn’t it? Ok, my kids belum la mature utk faham this lagi but I like to adopt this, should I ever need to. J

 

 

 

 

meh kite bercakap pasal birth control...

Tapi, warning awal2, ini bukan essay ilmiah. Ni essay bual kosong. There.

Apart from getting the baby boy news, me and the gynae had a brief discussion on the types of birth control I should be planning to use.

1-       Condom & withdrawal- since these were the methods we used after Busyra, which was proven to be ineffective, so kite pangkah this one siap2.

2-       Pills- Memandangkan I am not a discipline person when it comes to pills (even my vitamins pun…) oh well, lets just conclude I don’t do pills well. Although, for you guys yang have absolute no problem when it comes to discipline eating pills, this one is good. Good for your skin and… uhm.. I forgot. But something good. But then, I heard testimonials from friends that their libido went down the hill.. its hard for the woman (I think the word was ‘dry’ x salah) when with the husband.

3-       IUD Copper- the word copper itself dah membuatkan aku terkedu. Wait till you look at the deng thing (go to the nearest LPPKN clinic..) scary I tell you!!. But the risks- hilang dalam rahim, period x menentu, and scar dlm rahim… urghhhhh x mau la..

4-       IUD Silicon- RM800 for 5 years. Hilang dlm rahim, period x tentu sket.. apa lagi ntah.. tapi x banyak sangat side effect..

5-       Implanol- hormonal patch implanted under your skin.. the side effects? Gemok and …. Wait for it.. tumbuh jerawat. Ikan dengar je jerawat terus ‘no, no, no’ cam die plak yg nak amek…

6-       NuvaRing- this one.. I think I might choose. You insert it in ur vajayjay yourself setiap 1hb and keluarkan setiap 22 hb. Still hormone base.. and not so much of side effects… BUT!!! I cant breastfeed if I am using, some more, it will likely decrease the milk production.

Hmmm… susah kan nak buat decision? I don’t want to ‘ikat’ yet… we are only 31. mana tau by 35/ 36 terasa rindu nak ade anak kecik… which I always hear from married people that age…

What to do what to do..

alhamdulillah.

Met with my gynae yesterday.

 

InsyaAllah, im having a boy. :-D

 

 

Yes, I am very very very HAPPY!

 

 

 

 

hehe gatal nak tulis lagi. ngeee

This one is about my pregnancy.

You want in in a little embarrassing secret?

 

I think my pregnancy this time I feel a tinie minie bit of different, although overall im still bitchy and all that.. hehe

Oh, my appetite is humongous! (I sometimes buy 2 pack of heavy food for my lunch ngeeeee) but that’s the same ‘ol thing during my last pregnancies too.

 

What I really feel different is HOW VAIN I’VE BECOME. (twit, I don’t see myself as vain in my normal self. I love me but I don’t go and analyze and giving myself puji-pujian or kritikan about myself when I look myself inside the mirror.

 

TETAPI! Deng, I really LOVE looking at my pregnant body! Hehehe J

(I hope if you are my GIRL friends..if you know me personally J ) if… (aside from my darlin’ ikan…) you happen to be a guy.. uhm, appreciate you don’t continue to read.. J

 

I love the fact that my br3asts are fuller and firmer.. weeeeeeee!

I love that my S is bigger too J

I love my big S tummy (although when the stretch marks starts to pop up later I’ll retract this statement..)

I sometimes feel that im getting bigger at the arms and legs too but most of time (yes..) I feel satisfied with the proportion of my body. Macam x rase bertambah tembam.. rasenyelah..

I am grateful I don’t have the ‘elephant leg’ thingy and my shoe size is still  the same. Deng, I could possibly pull off wearing high heels.

SEEE? I have become this VAIN VAIN SANGAT VAIN pregnant mommy B-)

 

You are allowed to roll your eyes, you know? I mean… kalau org lain cakap cam ni, aku da lama ‘seriously?’

 

Tapi kan, I don’t feel like im leaning towards make up2 tu lah.. (before you suggest ‘maybe anak laki kot’ sebab mak akan rase nak cantek je…)

 

Oh well. There you go. J

 

 

best pics of the Bs in their baju raya :)

This picture was taken 1 week before raya, just received the baju raya package from atok in aloq setaq..

As requested by their atok, we took a picture of them Bs wearing the 1^st day baju raya, since our first raya was in seremban and all that…

 

Anyway, I always smile (with a touch of pang…) when I look at this picture.

Tell you, this is the best ‘raya’ picture of all 3 Bs looking at the camera!

 

Look at aqish, my 1^st princess.. doesn’t she look like a teenager? Hahaha yes, that’s what I saw here..

 

Ohhh my lovely lovely kids… mama and abah love you to death.

Be anak2 yang solehah, ye? Aminn. J

 

 

 

 

i just gotten some news.

I am and should be happy. Cuma, I just hope it doesn’t backfire me someday.

 

Thank you Allah!

 

 

 

aisyah marah lagi. deng pregnancy hormones!

I HATE IT LIKE HELL when people wasting my freakin time discussing and raising stupid issues.

 

I don’t mind it if your query is legit, but kalau bende tu da terang tang tang aku letak and ko tanye pasal mana bende tu… x aku melenting? And then what was the response? ‘ohh…’ !@#$%$#@#!

 

And for god sake!!!!!! Cosmetic punye hal pun nak kene double work??? As in now? When everything is still a DRAFT???

 

Are you just plain STUPID or are you dengki aku da siapkan keje weh?

 

Pastu ada hati suh aku stay after maternity??? Like HELL!

 

 

 

nak tulih apa eh?

Heheh. Keje opis setel for the time being. Jadik, aku kebusanan sebentar.

Tell me, what should I do?

 

Oh.

 

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all, especially my friends.

Jemput datang beraya kat umah ambo, yg masih rupe cam baru pindah dulu, except for it being duller and more bersepah.

Seriously, gambar anak lagi 2 org tu pun x hang2 pun. Silap.. x print2 pun lagi. Frame je da beli. Tu pun mana ntah. L

 

Gambar raya ada dlm iPod tapi apple being apple, byk plak die punye convert menconvert bagai baru boleh share gambar. So, knowing how ‘rajin’ I am.. you know how that ends. Tapi leh nengok aa kat FB. Syok gak nengok gambar raya kenkawan.. (yg mana keluar kat newsfeed aku je la..) Anak memasing comey gler. Especially anak harizah. Haaha keluar plak nama member sini. J. But seriously, aku vote Asha niece Hi5 paling comey!

 

Apalagi apalagi…

(you see betapa tgh busannye I sekarang?) hahah sekali ngan tensen baru abis buat keje :p

 

Dah ah. Good day!

 

 

 

 

funny how i feel this relates to me personally...

Steve Jobs resigned from Apple.

 

Tetibe aku plak rasa sedih, like sedih as in my fav boss resigns, camtu.

No, I never worked in apple. J gosh, that would be lovely!

Nor, I am a true fan of his products or him…

 

But.. (ok, don’t laugh! I take my books seriously, ok?)

I read one of SEP’s books that mentioned him and the struggle of all techies that era.. somewhere 70s, if not mistaken.

Those young ‘uns in Silicon Valley…

 

Although the book (Hot Shot) is about a fictional hero/heroine and fictional company, but they were involved in the whole struggle as the two Steves were.. and the two Steves were mentioned more than once in the book. Like I was there in their initial struggle.

 

Haha… I couldn’t be any weirder, huh? But still.. I am sad.

 

 

 

Cookies for My Bees

I promised Aqish I’d bake the Famous Amos cookies for her. I somehow misplaced the original recipe.. (I haven’t made them for at least a year!). I told her that I don’t have the recipe. You know what she said?

 

‘Dekat computer kan ada, Ma? Carik je..’

 

*scratches my head..

how in the world does she know that we can search recipes in the net??

 

Anyway, here’s the recipe gotten from the net, as advised by Aqish:

 

FAMOUS AMOS’ CHOCOLATE COOKIES RECIPE
Ingredients
1 bar butter (approx 250g)
1/2 cup granulated sugar
1/2 cup brown sugar
2 eggs
1 tsp. vanilla essence
2 cups plain flour
2 1/2 cups oatmeal, blended to powder
1/2 tsp. salt
1 tsp. baking soda
1 tsp. baking powder
340g chocolate chips
250g Chocolate bar, grated
100g nuts (your choice), chopped

 

Method
1. Preheat oven at 190C
2. Cream the butter and both sugars
3. Add eggs and vanilla, mix evenly
4. Fold in flour, oatmeal, salt, baking powder, and soda.
5. Add chocolate chips, grated chocolate bar and nuts. Mix well (I used my hands in a food grade plastic bag, as it is too thick for my mixer).
6. Roll into small balls (around 1 inch in diameter) and place two inches apart on a cookie sheet/tray.
7. Bake for 10 minutes at 190 C.

 

When the cookies are removed, they are soft. But when left cool, it will harden up and become slightly crisp outside (but chewy inside).

 

I know its kinda last minute but trust me, its all easy peasy! J