Friday, November 7, 2008

alhamdulillah... still praying hard

so, i met with dr intan... alhamdulillah no inducing needed yet sbb baby maintain 3.8kg.. and the baby's head masih below 10cm... so.. die pun x cuak just that there's no sign of me delivering soon die ckp.. sbb baby sgt active bergerak lagi...

so la nih, im still praying hard so that i can deliver normal, without complications (plus pain :) )

kenkawan, wait for my sms~~

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

desperately in need of an opinion...

dear kenkawan aku yg baik ati... im seriously in confusion sekarang nih and i would really2 appreciate anyone's take in this.

its about my pregnancy- the delivering part.

background
i underwent surgery for aqish- bukan sbb die besau (even she is a BIG baby time tu 3.95kg ok??) tapi kene emergency c-sect sbb she pooped inside me. reason dr cakap because baby stress, placenta da tertanggal.. so, i didnt know kalau i waited for normal that day, boleh go thru ke tak... (ade some of my frens kate nasib baik c-sect sbb nanti kalau sangkut, i had to endure 2 kesakitan.. but.. they're not doctors too.. heheh)
anyway, giving birth was easy peasy tapi the after tu yg i simply dont think i can go thru it again. rase sangat helpless. nak bangun susah, nak tidur susash, nak pee susah, berak apa tah lagi. cant cough, cant laugh etc etc.. and i still have the bump in my tummy (sbb xleh urut bagai..)

my current condition
my EDD is supposed to be 17th Nov 08. tapi my last visit to dr intan last sunday (2nd nov 08), my baby now weighs 3.8kg! (and i have 1 week to go?????). so, dr intan suggested me not to go to work fro the time being and plan for me to revisit her this friday.. to be induced, most likely...

my dilemma
1- Should i just go thru the inducing thing?
aku dgr ia adalah sakit, anybody know how sakit it is? Furthermore, aku actually dont want to force busyra to keluar kalau belum tiba masa die nak keluar. im no god, manala aku tau whether she is really2 ready to enter the world kan..??
2- Tunggu je visit this friday and kalau baby da macam at least 50/50 normal and c-sect, better aku tunggu je keluar when she feels rite? aku kalau boleh (sgt kalau boleh-every time prayers, mesti aku doa sungguh2 kat Allah utk bersalin normal...hmmmm what do i know what's best for me kan?). Ikan x kesah either way, cume, kalau c-sect lagi, then the possibility utk anak ramai tu kureng sket.. i think tu je concern die (me too).

aku camni, kalau bleh aku nak bsalin kat serdang. sbb bleh terus pantang kat serdang. my dad isnt doing that well, so aku xnak bebankan mak aku plak with my condition. she doesnt like to cook kalau my dad is sick, so kalau aku kat seremban, nanti she has to cook and aku just dont like giving her that condition. tambah plak kalau kene urut, nak kene anta jemput tukang urut la.. hmmm susah je aku pikir...
kalau bersalin kat serdang, then aku kene tunggu je la bila baby nak kuar. then bedah or not, lain kire. (btw, bedah kat hosp serdang ade negative remarks ke sebelum nih?- takut je tetibe die suh emergency lagi.. ohh tidak!!!)
kalau bsalin kat columbia seremban, i have the comfort of my totally-trusted gynae dr intan. BUT.. susah nak travel balik serdang. aku x nak susahkan my parents.

hmm.. writting this made me realise yg i shud just wait bile2 busyra nak kuar.. lantaklah kalau kene bedah ke x eh? hmmm.. aku sgt x suke mase pantang die kalau bedah.. camne????

weh kenkawan (yg da ade anak or not..) i need u guys nye opinin. seriously. apa aku nak cakap kat dr intan friday nih????