Wednesday, June 13, 2012

yes, i've taken it out.

and.... it was not as disgusting as i imagined. the process nor the thing. ;)

oh, i was talking about my nuvaring, from my contraceptive post.

however, i dont know whether this is related or not, but my current blood pressure reading is quite high. and this is the first time ever i have this kind of reading. its always normal even during all my pregnancies. *sighs*

HOWEVER, before i am being accused of being a slanderer, heheh, you have to know this is merely a suspicion on my part.. uhm... and maybe... that i was also just recovering from a fever, which means antibiotics and what nots... plus, i didnt have the time to fully rest after the fever broke- being on the road from alor setar to kl.
and here i thought my body is all imune to hardships :p

anyway, yes, i was quite quick to put in my suspicion to the ring. heh.

but as it is, i think it went well. i was told that i will be expecting my periods during this time and yeap, i did.
and, aside from me being under the weather, no other side effects though.

Monday, June 4, 2012

old issue...soothed.

no big secret. i hate being old.

but here is the best part when you are in that state. you feel extra excited when being commnented (or slightly implied) that you are not. B-)

last weekend, me and ikan, we were one of the entourage for a cousin's (ikan's side) engagement. so, they invited few relatives in KL to join in, which includes both releatives from the cousin's mom (ikan's aunt) and his dad, plus.. a few of this cousin's friends.

we gathered at this cousin's house for a breakfast gathering before we make the convoy trip to Sepang.

first episode
me and ikan (the kids are in Seremban at my mom's place since they want to spend their school holidays at kampung), we sat side by side during conversation, eating and sometimes do nothing. we touch each other, yes. playfully slapping or pinching each other, whispering at an intimate distance. PS: this is NOT to make you guys puke. im telling you the condition that day.

and then, i joined the 'kids' at conversation- by kids i mean the cousin's friends. i think they just entered the work world, say 23 to 24 years old. one of them was holding a baby girl. close to aydeen's age. and me being the mommy-sickly-missing-her-babies me, asked to hold her baby and excused my obstrusive behavior as me missing my kids.

and.... this is when i get all smiley and kembang kempis.

the girl said "dah ada anak? Ingatkan belum kahwin lagi"

i grinned like a toddler being offered candy.. and purposely paused (to cherish the moment being labeled as single and (self impying) young...) before answering "heheh, dah empat dah"

at this moment, i had vague thoughts that she may be referring to our 'behavior' but i insist that she meant our looks. taking from Jenny Lawson, dont judge me.

second episode
me and ikan were in this conversation with a relative (ikan's aunt's husband's side). It is logical that she (~60yo) didnt know us. both me and ikan being the younger generation in the family.
so, when she was asking ikan where he lives and ikan replied 'live nearby', and going on about being from utara and what nots (at this time, i was beside ikan, happily rubbing my palms at his thighs and smiling and nodding to the conversation). ikan's aunt was there too, joining the talk.

then the same woman asked me "awak duduk mana?"

.... *awkward silence*
i was trying to understand the question. so simple yet so difficult to answer.

then ikan's aunt saved the awkward silence by coughing and replied "ni menantu Lyn, wife die ni",  at the same time gesturing towards ikan and me.

simultaneously, ikan was saying "kami duduk kat sini-sini ja. dia wife saya", emphasizing the 'kami'.

it was awkward, yes. but in a weird way, i felt indignantly delighted.
i am giddy with the insinuation that we are young (self implied) and unmarried.
yet at the same time, i do not touchy feelly my boyfriend in front of elders. relatives, at that! (i know this left me with all sorts of implications but each to his thoughts) Taking from Jenny Lawson again, dont jugde me.

there. that was one of the many hectics (hahah, this is one emo ride for me since i take this old issue seriously!) that came over me during the weekend.

what should i feel? happy? perasan? hahaha. that is exactly what i feel. :)