beautiful words from the guy...

tell me i'm not wrong.

whatever puji-pujian you receive from other people, does not even compare to when you receive it from your spouse. (ok, actually, i'm talking from a wife's perspective).

and it goes vice versa (i mean, when HE comments/ complaints, urgh. it hurts. deep hurt)

if your friend says you're pretty, you say thank you and feel delighted.
when your husband says you're pretty, you feel like you're the f*cking queen of the universe.

if your relative says you're generous and kind, you feel humbled and delighted.
when your husband says you're generous and kind, you feel like you're Mother Theressa.

what if when your friends or acquaintance call you're crazy?
i doubt i feel a thing. laugh out loud maybe.

when my husband says 'YOU MAKE ME CRAZY!'
i blush (figure of speech, not real blush cause i'm dark and doubt i really can...) and smiled like a crazy person everytime i remember :)

my nose and i...

[selit] my sister (she's a teacher) said that most of her students (even the top ones...) are guilty of not using proper capital letters, as am i :). it is simply the sms-internet language invading them. i dont condone this in educational usage, yet, i dont get offended simply because it is easier for the writer and (having read some haywire converted ebooks), the content is what i am looking for :). all that said, sorry to have screwed your eyes with my incorrect spelling, grammars and capital letterings! [abih selit]

i have a blasted sensitive nose.
its worst during morning sickness when everything is smellier! (no, i am NOT pregnant!)

*prepare for some negativity*
i hate strong perfumes
i hate those (sorry) religious burning smells..
i hate bau kemenyan (my mom's neighbour, seriously!)
i hate bau cat's poop and piss (damn, neighborhood cat!)
i hate bau gel rambut lelaki yang sangat hapak itu..
and, this morning, seriously! i hate that my monday started with bau orang tak mandi. OMG! at least start your week with some hygene, no?

and now, i feel that the smell of this fella in the train is haunting me. or is it my flamboyant work neighbor pun x mandi?

ikan always says that its all in my mind and that the smell can be ignored.
i beg to differ.
my nose insist on sucking these 'odorants'. and that you can not unsmell them. its fact (eh, i think so)
and it will definitely kacau my lunch/ dinner or in this case- work. damn irritating, is what it is.

*gradually letting the negative air bubble out*
i do however, like this nose of mine when my kids pooped. :) saves the trouble of finding out when the poop gets thick to wash ;p *eww*
i like it also that i can smell good food (usually my favs) when no where in sight. so, ikan will be all 'mana ada' and flushes embarassedly when i found 'em..

oh well. dear nose, you can stop smelling these 'bau budak asrama' ever! make it like a filter or something before you send it to the whatever nerves..

gish!

felda oh felda...

disclaimer: this post is slightly different from previous posts simply because i dont discuss my own financial interest or investments publicly... embarrassed is more likely the reason :p.. but... felda wei!

anyway...

so, have you heard about felda being up for IPO yet? you should, if you're a Malaysian. with all the hoos and haas..

honestly, i havent trade in the exchange for 3 years now. restrictions, dont you know... but since... uhm.. you would soon know what..

i am seriously considering this. man, for ~rm4.50 worth (forecasted).. not as expensive as most blue chips.. but..
politics aside, think of money.. albeit my own analysis(?) might not be correct.. and, the very known stock market being unpredictable due to speculations (although analysts can never put this in their report!) but honestly, most stocks are driven because of it.
eh, nak bagi ceramah plak...back to the point.

if you are big players of stock market, you can opt for financing, which i can refer you to. easy peasy.
if you are a lowly small investor, why dont we give it a try huh? 10 lots (1 lot = 100 units, for those who dont know, in Malaysia, we can buy min 1 lot) only costs you rm4500.

felda, babe!

contraceptive day 8

i started nuvaring on 16th and today is my 8th day.

the insertion is easy peasy. seriously, i dont feel a thing.

the side effects?
not sure whether nausea is one of them or this is simply gas in my tummy. but its been a week now i- i felt like vomiting in the morning (only). please, dont let it be pregnancy again.
horny as hell- i noticed.
headache- minor, but again.. this might be the gas again.
there's some rash (ikan said) at my bon bon.
insomnia.. but maybe thats because of aydeen crying. (mommy's boy have to have his mom's arm pit near his face to sleep. and his mom rather be under his dad's arm pit.)

but so far, its okay. will be taking it out on June 6. will update that later (urgh... if you still want to hear read)

a quickie.

yeahh!!! received this from the mail today!

apologies for the camera quality. satu- ia di bawah meja dua- my phone adalah kuno hp.. hahaha

taking from the author herself,

'...Because you are defined not by life's imperfect moments, but by your reaction to them...'

here here~

f*cking cracking funny

i normally go to TheMalaysianReader's blog for good reviews or simply for a good chuckle reading his posts.
today, i am soo thankful for his desperation-to-read-something-funny that led me to be a fan of 'The Bloggess'. it is amazingly wtf-funny!

i seriously banged my head on my desk reading her posts. real or no.

*looks up to [heaven]* THANK GOD FOR THE NET!

my 'old' issue... again

ok, ok. for those who reads my post from a year back or so.. you would already know i dread being old.
and later i uhm... guess supposedly resigned to the notion.

well.. my resignation was with condition, actually. heh :p

i know i am no longer young. even though i favor most songs on 'we are young, forever young etc etc..' you get my drift.
but i separate myself from those kakak2 abang2 and encik2 (mid forties with kids in secondary schools)
to me they labeled as *sheepishly* uhm.. older generation.. (c'mon! i was born in 1980! still counts as gen-y kan?)

anyway, i am at peace (if not slightly disturbed) when a 10 year old calls me auntie/ achik. (actually, i almost strayed my cycling route when this boy hailed to me 'hi auntie!') but after recovering, yes, i managed to gesture a peace sign to him.. albeit not straight away :p

i, however, sangat terkedu when my neighbour's kid of ~14yo calls me 'hi achik'.

whoa? did that just happened?
(me and ikan were playing badminton and i honestly missed ikan's shuttlecock, and an easy one at that!)

i  know logically the boy should call me this. his younger sisters calls me achik too. nope, dont mind a'tall. but his younger sisters are ~aqish's age.

sekali lagi i was being knocked to senses. another sign to get the ibadah kicking!

The Hunger Games Trilogy

Oh, before that. I read and sometimes I put my thoughts on those books here but I am NOT in anyway starting a book blog.. well.. at least not in this blog. This one was supposed to be my experience using the secret but hahahah.. well, that turned out perfectly well, didn’t it?

Back to business.
As mentioned previously, I L.O.V.E Suzanne Collins! She writes splendidly!

I love all of 3 books in the trilogy but I didn’t like how she (and the director) did with the movie. I specifically hated the ‘blair-witch-project’ style of camera shooting. Its dizzying. :p

The Hunger Games
The first book in the trilogy is intriguing- it wrecked my emotional yin yang. I cried a lot reading this one. But also it somehow made me energetic and in a fight/survive mode. I love Katniss’ kindness act but not quite in her surviving act. Its because I like Peeta- his sense of maturity and kindness. Somehow, I hated Katniss for ‘acting’ to be in love with him, although it was needed for both of them to survive. At least, she should hint him that it was for the game, and not letting him on. But then, this is needed to strengthen the story line in book 3. *sighs* the book is perfect, to be honest.

But I did have the need to take a break and hence, I read The Hunger Pains, right before (or in between) I read the second installation. Just to get the feel again but also to reset my emo state to be at cheerful mode. :p deng its funny. Bodoh funny, but funny all the same.

Catching Fire
Uhm.. to tell you the truth. Reading the second book wasn’t too exciting. It was needed to introduce and strengthen the new characters. It also showed how Katniss developed a more adult feeling towards Peeta, but hold your horses... nothing exciting happened.

Anger and frustration- those were frequent feelings I had while reading. Romantic? a few.

This is where they don’t give a fig about the outcome of their lives and developed their sense of rebellion. Another must have before starting with Book3. Okay, it seems my opinion on the second book is quite dull. But its not so bad. Its still an interesting read.

Mocking Jay
Now, this is where the story gets serious. It tells us about war. Its simple, really- you hate being oppressed, you want to fight back and usurp the current ruler. And, yes, it involved war. But, there it is. War. It’s not so simple. Though fictional and I shouldn’t be thinking about it too much, but I can’t help it. Its definitely thought provoking. The story is wonderfully practical (can I say that?) what I mean is, while you are reading a fictional story and hoping/ expecting a HEA, which she delivered, but there were also unhappy endings especially to good characters. *spoiler alert* I love Finnick and Prim but they ended up dead.*end spoiler* Now, in normal stories, you would want to lash at the author. But somehow, I feel that the story needs this- to tell that war brings casualties. War brings sadness. It cannot say to readers (especially teenagers- young adults) that war is the answer and everything will be merrily ever after.

Though, I like the ending, albeit not too excited about it- having (the handsome) Gale out being this sophisticated government intelligence whatever, and kissing another pair of lips, as quoted by Katniss. He didn’t do anything wrong but I was hoping that he knows Katniss chose Peeta and not him (is it obvious I’m in team Peeta?) and not because of circumstances. Not because they wont be able to work out because of the bombing.

Another thing I love this third installation is because of what Plutarch said

“… Now we’re in that sweet period where everyone agrees that our recent horrors should never be repeated. But collective thinking is usually short-lived. We’re fickle, stupid beings with poor memories and a great gift for self-destruction. Although who knows? Maybe this will be it, Katniss …[This] time it sticks. Maybe we are witnessing the evolution of the human race. Think about that”

It summarizes somehow.

I wish I was reading these with my kids are in their teens. It’s really something I want them to read and ponder.