sambung citer ari tu..

hmm.. aku actually da malas nak nangis2 lagi la.. cukup la nangis ngan mak and adik beradik aku bile terkenangkan ayah..

well friends, changes yg aku dok sucked in coping is the death of my beloved dad. tapi aku bersyukur everything went well and eventho sedih yg teramat sgt, bile diteliti balik, the whole process of him passing away tu berjalan dgn sebaik mungkin. you see, my dad jenis x suka susahkan anak2 die (as tho kitorg akan rase disusahkan laa kan dgn permintaannye?). conveniently, mase die pergi, all his children were by his side, all cucu2 ade termasuk his latest which is Busyra (aku ingat lagi yg he gave a responce bile aku bawak busyra jumpe die, angkat tangan die usap kepala busyra... kakak aku cakap for the 2 days die not giving any responce, he did when aku bawak busyra...) aku pun da kuat sket from the operation, leh la dukung busyra sendiri bawak kat ayah... adik aku tgh cuti... memang what he wanted, He granted it for him. ayah pernah pesan kat my lil brother yg if he goes, he wanted to go at home, where anak2 die leh ajar die 'la ila ha illallah'.. die nak sumer anak2 and his wife to be with him.. granted by Allah...

ntahla.. sedih plak kenang that day. all the emotions.. hmm.. macam mana la azury felt when her dad passed away last time... sbb, kekadang aku ade gak terase.. cucu2 ayah masih kecik lagi die da pergi.. azury lagi sedih agaknye kan? aku patut bersyukur dgn keadaan sekarang. ade org lagi teruk.. bapa meninggal time kecik la.. accident la... hish nauzubillah...

well.. yg remain dgn aku sekarang is the memories and his advices. antara yg aku sgt ingat la kan..
~ kak teh, Allah bagi kakteh rezeki semua nih sbb hubungan suami isteri tu intim.
ayah mmg slalu tekankan on the relationship in marriage. he emphasize on remaining romantic between the husband and wife. so, this was his comment when i told him on my recent promotion..
~ walau letih skalipun, kakteh, nasik nak kasi suami makan kene masak dgn tangan kakteh sendiri. jangan kasi org gaji masakkan...
his advice masa aku memula kawen dulu..
~ bile ade duit lebih tu, beli la apa yg kakteh teringin nak beli.. bende yg perlu and penting tu nanti ade je jalan nak kene beli nanti
hahah.. ni aku x sangka keluar from mulut ayah.. x salah aku this was mase aku nak masuk umah dulu, sibuk nak beli barang umah tapi nak kene bajet. but i forgot what was the necessity and indulgence item.. tapi bile pikir2 ade gak truth in it.. once in a while, its nice to treat yourself.. tapi jgn la everytime ade duit sebok beli bende for indulgence je kan..???

and friends.. one thing that really strike me.. please dont take your parents' requests for granted.. dont take your parents for granted too.. kite x tau when they will go, just make sure you make them happy sbb you cant imagine what they had done for us.. and untuk kite tunaikan permintaan mereka yg alahai x semenggah mana tu.. its not the material yg make them happy, its the effort tu aku rase. and maybe you wont feel the impact now, tapi when they are gone, hanya Allah je tau how you desperately want to give whatever to make their last days happy.

aku harap ayah spent his last days happy with the comfort of his children and wife.