about busyra..

This is soo not the good mommy entry.. and definitely, busyra will hate me if she stumbles upon this when she’s older.

But the thing is, mommy is a little sleepy in the office right now and mommy needs to occupy time by thinking and doing something interesting J

 

So, what about Busyra nowadays? Active.. and hmm a little (ye ke??) hardheaded. Everyone knows how ‘active’ she is. She picks up everything and puts it in her mouth, and at the same time giving her cheeky eyes- telling she knows that what she’s doing will make mommy and daddy squirm!

She has the gall to bully her sister.. oklah, aqish is not so much of a fighter.. busyra actually have no fear in fighting or provoking her other older cousins.. boys or girls. That’s the youngest cucu peridah md zain for you.

She climbs at the handles in the car…

She hangs on the rails of the swings in seremban… with no one supporting her landing..-_-”

She’s like a treasure hunter, finding the oddest things around the house…

 

Anyway, she does have her cuteness one way or another. Especially when she adores carrying her laundry to the laundry basket.. even took her sister’s laundry- cause aqish doesn’t bother to. Same goes to getting and putting their milk bottles in the sink.. when she makes her cute face and voice when she knows she’s in trouble..

 

Hmm.. this entry is simply an run through entry to help me from shutting my eyes in the office. ;)

 

 

being pregnant...

I am now in my 3^rd trimester. The oh-so-wonderful life is slowly fading away. not that I’m being ungrateful and unhappy about the baby, but when the time is near, so does the uncomfortable state I am in now beginning to surface.

 

Why I don’t like 3^rd trimesters:-

The baby is waayyyy active. Not just moving, moving. She’s jumping, kicking ass, and don’t know what else she is fighting in there. Its bearable of course but dang annoying.

Fatigue is driving me up the wall! There’s tons of things I want and need to do in my head- but my movements are becoming slower and slower, and so does my will power- when the lenguh kicks in. when that happens, all I can do is sit or lie down, which I hate if I have so many things to do!!

I’m becoming heavier, of course.. last checkup I was 55.4kg. and this leads to me walking dang slow. And dang tired climbing stairs at the monorail and star.

I haven’t taken my neurogain for the baby yet. Pity her. I should get rite on it!

And since the time is near, I am so not ready! I have to set an appointment with Hosp Serdang for my elective surgery.. I haven’t bought a thing for the baby’s arrival. And, when visiting Kak’s newborn, I felt a pang of fear. Wtf? I’m having my 3^rd and I’m scared? Huhuhu~~ I am scared. A lot of things in my mind… even death- to that extent!

 

Well.. guess you’ve all know by now how tense I’ve become now. I’m still happy for my sunshine no.3 but dang… im stressing out!

 

 

 

i hate tetanus (betul x eja nih??) shots!

Aku kene jab semalam- to my surprise.. dah tiba masa die ke? I wasn’t being warned at all! Tetibe dr raja kata aku kene inject ari ni..(semlm). Sh*t sakit ok!

And until now my shoulder felt like someone had punched me badly.

 

Ok. Tu je hahahahahhahaha

 

 

 

 

sekadar update

Heh. A lot happening since my last update tapi xdak idea and masa nak tulis.

 

Ikan da balik yeay!

Pose ganti cam x sempat nak abiskan…

Baju raya x dapat nak tempah.. beli siap je la nampak gayanye…

Byk gile buku da abis baca sampai x dapat nak buat rumusan kat sini (like u guys like to read them…) I usually comment kat GR la nih.

Projek ramadhan- cam biasa kunon nak khatam 1 quran.. additionally ingat nak baca tafsir from start to finish..

Reunion da lama terkubur dr kepala nih.. sian harizah, tgh pantang, die plak yg havoc. I blame only myself for this. SORRY kenkawan esp HARIZAH.

Pregnancy and all of its ups and downs.. hahaha x dapek nak summarize. Letak tajuk je ;)

 

I’m still loving life as it is~ sure, ade bumps and all. But as of today and few days back.. what a beautiful life!

 

 

feeling better, i guess. (skip lagi, not important)

So.. I am still wondering why but at least what I did and had yesterday made up a bit of my day.

 

Ikan is gone tho. Sangat jarang both of us being separated like this for a long time. Selamba je nengok nannoor dok bintulu sebulan. OMG! I cant. Don’t think so..

 

Anyway, balik from keje yesterday ikan said some nice things. (1)

Balik, we singgah kat kedai segi jap beli sayur- I went wild~ ikan usually does the grocery shopping. Tapi yesterday since I wanted to cook for him, I went in. I came out with lots of vegs which come to think of, sapa lah nak makan… tinggal aku je yg makan sayur.. hmm..  (2)

Then, after maghrib, I cooked him dinner, even balik kire lambat yesterday.. I managed to cook 6 dishes everyone! Huuhuhu… selalu 3 at most. I’m so proud of myself. Terasa ade skil mak seremban plak. Heheh masak laju. (ok, x laju mana pun… we end up dining at 10!) heheheh (3)

Our lauk?

1-       Labu gulai lemak

2-       Udang masak tomato

3-       Ayam goreng kicap fusion Aisyah

4-       Terung goreng berlada

5-       Sawi goreng

6-       Ikan tenggiri goreng (for the kids)

 

Then, siap kemas2 dapur and basuh + ampai baju. Setel! (4)

 

Oklah. Terasa productive memang motivating.

 

Kalau we had some ‘loving’ last nite, mesti last nite jadi the best nite ever. Hahahahah. Ish ish ish ;)

 

And then, this morning, I woke up at 4.30 am to sahur. (…5)

 

Nice~

nothing super. u may skip from reading.

Where’s my super duper? I lost it suddenly. I’m feeling blue. I myself am not sure of the cause…

 

Was it because ikan’s going away?

Was it last nite?

Is it my pregnancy?

Not enough sleep?

Friends?

Money?

My previous dream?

Books I read lately?

Work?

 

Owhhh.. sounds so awful! Im attracting negative vibes and I sure don’t like it. I don’t even like myself today. I don’t feel wonderful. Even in prayers I feel this sorrow.

Ya Allah! What has come over me? I know You take care of me. Please give me happiness. Amin.

 

I have an idea why actually.. but too afraid to admit it. It was being talked over- over and over again. I thot I took it well, never to repeat this feeling/ doubt. But why does it comes to me in the most inconvenient time?

 

 

kasih x terungkap... as expected

I finished the malay book last Friday and what can I say.. as expected.

 

1-       Jalan cerita memang suam and over the top. I don’t know… whether its only me or does this really happen, or possibility of happening? Kawen senyap2 from the rest of the world especially from the guy’s parents. Hello??? Mentua laki la yg patut minta diredhai dulu, kan? Anyway.. moving on..  kawen time study kat overseas, the heroine pregnant and lived all alone… and ade another guy (who loved her dearly) ‘tolong’ jaga her and the baby…..??? really? That saint? I don’t buy it. Lagi pun, cam x aci 1 girl but managed to steal many good male hearts, even when she is already married? C’mon! da kawen da la.. you cant rely on other guy’s affection blab la bla…

2-       Heroine (Khairina)- lembik gile minah ni. You take a risk, live it on ur own.. cam budak yg x fakir panjang.. no wonder all disaster comes falling on your lap. X leh terima.

3-       Hero (Ikhwan)- lagi aku x leh terima. Wtf? Kawen rahsia2 pastu tinggalkan bini (yg u shud already suspected she’s pregnant..) and even konon missed her sooo demn much, only managed to call her once in a while?? What are you? Demented? Ingat die gefren ko? Ishhh.. and, the character- the author didn’t make him seem to dependant upon. Sekadar menyelamatkan his family by marrying an heiress… ko x leh cari keje yg better ke? Actually, towards the end pun, as tho he is living on the riches of his 2^nd wife. Definitely not the kind of guy I wud dream of. At least cari kerjaya sendiri la wei.

4-       HEA? Not so much. Boy, there’s a lot of things I don’t get in this story.. even some wud say the villain (Zurin) got what she deserved for.. but I don’t buy any of it. There’s so many wrong things going on in this book that I don’t find the happy ending to that happy. Zurin pergi hospital sakit jiwa. Seriously? That’s it? No remorse, no confession no nothing?

 

Arghhhhh what a week! Sib baik along the week I read ‘And then he kissed her.’ Steamy stuff this one. But a funny and entertaining one that is! And I always love female with knowledge. Loved their conversation.. and really loved their confession- esp when he realized he’s already in love with her. Very light yet strongly entertaining. Sapa nak baca, let me know. I have the softcopy.

 

 

The rest of my week- da dapat the recipes I wanted. nak cari time nak buat jek. Bought RW and O&A but will start reading this weekend. Starting ‘The Bride’ by Julie Garwood plak.

Ooooo.. I’m missing ikan already! (and he is only going not until this Thursday!)