what a super duper life this is

what am i up to instead of working.. heheh

2011-12-21T11:09:00.001+08:00

i am bored.
i have things to do before i go off for my maternity- handover, manco paper, appraisal etc etc
my lists of books (yes, i am guilty of reading during office.. :p) sux rite now.

and now i am reduced (lol! demeaning nye bunyi!) to harass people in FB. wakakakaka

and now, even FB isn't enticing enough.

i better get back to my office workload.

haihh~

how i am still shocked with the world.

2011-12-20T09:24:00.002+08:00

i received this funny email from an ex-colleague. its about the journey of s.perms.

image 1-
they were racing.
the leading s.perm says "ok guys, lets go!"
second s.perm says "first one there's half a baby!" (me: good motivation!)

image 2-
still travelling.
another s.perm asks "are we going the right way?"

image 3-
leading s.perm turns to the pack and says "i didn't think it should be this long..."
another s.perm asks "where the hell are we??"

image 4-
two men cuddling after s.ex.

...i rolled on the floor laughing my as.ses off.. deng funny.
then, i fwded to my colleagues.

suddenly, i received a reply from my work NEIGHBOR- "this happens to me all the time"

urgh.. its suddenly NOT so funny now.. i try to be open.. but its still kinda 'ewwww' (although i know this guy is a Bi.

cant help but being nosy...

2011-12-15T12:30:00.001+08:00

i listen to hitz.fm every morning but since the 2 morning crew DJs are away on leave, and the backup crew (sorry, but seriously...) sounds quite annoying.. i listen to mix instead.
so, this morning, i was listening to this morning-whats-its-called: Dilly Di.lemma kot. something like that. Basically, people gives this Dilly their problems and they pick up calls who may want to offer their advice/opinion.

this morning, the dilemma was on this girl. She asked her ex-bf to pack up her things in London cause she said she only trusted him. then when she receives her stuff, she noticed that most of her 'valuables' (i.e. ManU jersy, MU mug) went missing. She suspected the ex or the ex's current gf as the culprit. She confronted the ex, he denied. she insist on getting hold of the current gf number so that she can ask her.

DIlly thinks her case is innocent.
JD thinks she wants to hook up with the ex again.
Most of the callers thinks she should move on and not to accuse/ suspect these 2 ppl.

IMO, she's no innocent. i think she (yes) wants to hook up with the ex and wants to know about the new gf. come on.. Jersy? Mug? that is what you considered valuable? ok, i am not a football fan. i may not get the whole fanatic memoribilia whatever. but, if you think the deng things were valuable, why didnt you pack them when you were returning to Malaysia in the 1st place? kan? looks to me, that she didnt think it was that important until she asked her ex to pack and send it to her. lol! rekindle old flames, perhaps?
She should definitely NOT contact the current gf. (i dont think the gf would like to talk to her! much less being confronted on her missing stuffs!) anyway, like other callers seemed to suggest, move on already! You'll be much happier.

lol! what a nosy fatso i am! :p

Mak ai, Jelai tu amek jauh.

2011-12-12T09:19:00.001+08:00

yesterday, me and family plus my PIL went to a wedding kenduri in Jelai. They're relatives of mine- from my dad's side. BangKalang (we call him)- the father of the groom really looks like my dad. i mean, seriously. they can pass off as siblings! where in actual my dad was his uncle. it was kinda strange looking at him. its like my dad is still around. the same grin. huh~~ miss my dad lohh.

anyway, Jelai is soooooo far! its like a far far away kingdom. hahahaha sorry, if anyone is from there.
i remembered when i was a kid, i didnt like to go there. solely because of the distance. its like, you sleep, you wake up and you sleep again and you wake up again, and still you havent arrived yet. not even waking up to a view!

all that crap paragraph up there, all just want to tell you i went to a great distance for a kenduri.

another part of my story is.. how greatful and proud i am to have such a wonderful guy as a husband. (aik? camne from kenduri leh sampai ke ikan??)

i am a ....hmmm.. what do you call those people yang x amek peduli sgt pasal pengorbanan orang and is in their own world- looking at their own comfort? ohh...yes, SELFISH.

well, albeit embarassing, yes. i am selfish. unless it suits my comfort, i dont usually go to kenduris.. especially those far far away and the journey involves routes with no telephone signal. (go figure!)

BUT, my hubs has this policy with kenduri kawen sedara mara.. he takes it VERY seriously. especially where in this case, the relative (mind you- MY side of relative) came from his far far away home and blessed ours (Kakmah's recently- but he never missed any of our kenduris, even when it was clear he was sick. and on motorcycle some more!). i am very grateful i have relatives like these. but, me being me, i dont usually go out from my comfort zone and voluntarily go there, you know? i am that shallow.

but i am glad my hubs insisted to go (even with the packings and movings and da di das)..
and today, eventhough my body aches and i am terribly sleepy, i am very glad i went. i had a great time. despite the raining. i trully enjoyed my day yesterday.

thanks Bangkalang and KakLang for inviting.
thanks my dear husband for insisting and driving.
thanks my PIL for accompanying and babysitting.

i am suddenly proud of myself.

Choc. Moist cake recipe

2011-12-09T09:03:00.001+08:00

serupa as why i put in the famous amo.s cookies previously, this is an attempt for me to NOT loose the deng recipe (again).

FYI, before i give birth and move in to Bangi (no oven there yet), i would like to say good bye properly to our dearly beloved oven.. so, im baking my all time favo- this very moist chocolate cake and ikan is baking his lasagna (no mention on his long forgotten yummy cinamon rolls).

so, here it is:-

1) The Cake

250g butter
1 1/2 cup flour
1 1/4 cup custor sugar
1 cup milk
2 eggs
1/2 tea spoon baking powder
1 teaspoon vanila
1 1/2 teaspoon bicarbonat soda
1 cup cocoa powder

Pour everything in mixing bowl
Stir ~15 minutes
Bake for 45 mins at 180 deg.

2) The Topping

1/2 bar cooking choclate
1/2 cup fresh milk
1 tea spoon butter
1 tea spoon sugar

additional- plenty of choc rice (i am such a conversative person and i insist to maintain this in its deco :) )

What do you think of flirting?

2011-12-07T16:01:00.001+08:00

honestly, if you ask me dead on, like rite now, i would say i'm cool with it. as long as both sides are aware that they are no serious intentions. i mean, there must be a sense of detachment when both parties flirt. it ends there.

i guess i am ok with ikan flirting with other females. i trust him, not that i encourage him though ;p (i get jealous often... :) )
i know ikan has no qualms me flirting with other males. he knows i dig him a lot. hehehe
and, although i am against infidelity and what nots, im cool with married ppl flirt with other ppl.
i mean, light flirt, ok? those definitely NOT involving touching and giving outrageous remarks.

lets face it. flirting and being the object of flirtatious gestures gives pleasure. a moment of feeling desirable.
BUT! it has to stop there. it wont be a hint of 'pleasure' if you take it to the next level. nope. sorry. thats just asking for trouble.

i think it is how you handle them, i guess. like i said, it should not get serious, i.e. the object of your flirtatious gestures should not be in your mind for more than a second. it turns to dangerous territory if you allow even a fraction of what was supposed to be a flippant remark and treat it with some importance.

panjangnye intro...

the main story- what if your boss wants you to flirt a little with a person at work? would you be ok with it? would you resign?
to add another tidbit to the situation... what if your boss tu is also your long time friend?

a colleague of mine is resigning her post because her boss (and super long friends) reportedly asked her to ask this guy (old and married) for dinner. threesome of course. 'she' is single and available.

now, do you think the boss here is solely pimping her? OR do you think this boss thinks (as a friend) that this girl should have some fun? (I do not condone extra marital affais, albeit some does)

i personally wont ask my subordinate to do this. nope.
but during office hours, i dont see any harm in smiling and being nice to this guy. he doesnt fall under those 'stupid' people i hate to 'yes' to.

well, this may be too presumptuous of me. i am not and never was in her position. i think i can understand her fear. but i dont think resigning is the answer.

now you know how open i am, huh?

on Hailey.

2011-12-06T09:42:00.001+08:00

so seldom i get to write on Hailey (ye ke??)

its because of the jinx. seriously. :p

but, i have to tell you this one. i find it soo cute (well, everything about her to me is cute!)
Hailey loves to wake her sister up.

she is the earliest riser between all them Bs. basically, when i switch on the lights every morning, Hailey is the first one to open her eyes (sometimes, earlier than her dad :p).
so, every morning- especially now that its the school holidays, i will deligate my waking up task to this girl. man! she really understands! she'll be like look up to me and as though menerima arahan yang penting, starts to go to our bedroom (if by then she already followed me to the kids' room to iron my clothes) and start poking her sister. She will target Aqish first, i guess less resistance compared to her kakak Hannah.

And even when she is still mamai from just being awake, she will still try and poke her sister with half opened eyes. huhuhu. maybe we should record this. B-)

ok. there you go. know a bit about my 3rd daughter. She's going to be a kakak soon. oh~~

so tired..

2011-12-05T09:27:00.001+08:00

we've begun our packing to move and what a weekend!
(i thought we have very little things to pack- i mean, we intend to leave several furnitures there and some are even fixed ones- meaning lagila x yah punggah memunggah)

BUT! (Thank God i have helpful in laws- insisting to assist us start packing up)

after a tiring weekend, they (my PIL) said that not even half is done. (seriously?? banyakkah bende2 di rumah kami yg kosong itu?)

so, we might have to speed things up a lil bit.

clothes- 60% done (only the ones we need to wear left)
toys- 90% done
kitchen utensils- 90% done (left- pots & pans, we are left with plastic plates and spoons for the rest of the month :( )
books- done (unsurprisingly this was the first to be boxed!!!)
Kids' room- 90% done
Master bedroom- 90% done
bilik bibik- 100% NOT done
Toilets- not started yet but dont think will need much time
Perhiasan bagai- done

left to accomplish:-
Dining table to disemble (makan bersila je la fatso sorang nih hehehe)
katil bibik to disemble
wrap all shelves (4 je)
Curtains- unhook and wash and re-hook
Label all big furnitures to be moved- refrigerator (both), washing machine, kids bed, kids wardrobes + shelves, bibik's bed, dining table, all shelves, recliner, bedroom TV, boxes, carpets

today is 5th Dec, second week of December. to finish up all packing within this week.
weekend- beli cat
11th Dec. (w3)- clean the frigging house and touch up (paint) what nots.
18th Dec (w4)- upload to mudah.
26th Dec. (w5)- clean bangi house, paint bilik aqish (painter), move in mid week (~28th/29th)
2nd Jan. masuk spital.
3rd Jan bersalin. woooooo~~~

my God! gile packed! :p wish me luck~~~

InsyaAllah we'll be Bangi citizens.

2011-11-29T10:49:00.001+08:00

we're letting our condo, partially furnished. anyone have an extra functioning refrigerator we can buy to replace ours?

i'm soo gonna miss our home. but what to do? we (I) cant manage 4 kids and hopping up and down the elevator. not even if i try hard enough to find a bibik. i'd rather find a landed house to rent. even if i cant find a bibik, at least i wouldnt have the issue of getting the kids (cases of sleeping) into the house should ikan goes outstation (his wretched kursuses).

i guess we'll be having a goodbye party soon... i think (boleh ke with my condition and the packing and the advertising and the bla bla bla)

...and the sleepless nights begin.

2011-11-23T16:07:00.001+08:00

Aydeen (insyaAllah) is starting his kung fu lessons already.
Gosh, i wish he could time his schedule to stop from 10pm to 5.30 am.

please, baby. help mommy here.

*sighs* 1 month 2 weeks to go...

i had this weirdest dream...

2011-11-22T09:55:00.001+08:00

i dreamt about one of my close friend, and it had something to do with the guy i had a secret crush on as briefly told in here.

funny but i hate emotional dreams. they just make you restless.

anyway, in the dream, i didnt like this friend and she didnt like me but in the girls being girls way- i.e. benci senyap senyap. then, this whatever event came up and we had to exchange gifts and i dont know how the dream ended with me being confronted with this friend- she showed me some sort of nasty message signed by me. and in the dream, i was like this clueless person- "what about it? who gave it to you?" and showed genuine surprise when saw my name as the sender.

to cut things short, this friend confronted that she had this negative feelings towards me after receiving the message and thats why all the animosity started. and i told her that 'i thought you hated my guts cause i liked the same guy you did, although i didnt expect you to find out, no one knew'.

and we lived happily ever after. (didnt go that far yet but we did patch things up and hugged)

now, why would i have a dream like that? oh, the emotional part is during the confrontation- both were hysterically crying- girls... what do you expect?

dont you just hate those kinda dreams? cant a dream be like always calm, peaceful and pleasurable? i dont have these unpleasant kinds often but when they visit me, i get restless and disturbed. i once or twice dreamt ikan left me- died (nauzubillah) or the unmentionable-C word (nauzubillah) and i end up waking up in sobs. but i liked the feeling when ikan hugs me and tells me it was just a dream, afterwards. but nonetheless, its still bothersome.

honestly, i like sleeping without ANY dreams. just a blank black space. ~~~ahhh bliSS

kongratulasi untuk dindaku

2011-11-21T15:29:00.001+08:00

my lil sister- kakmah, tied the knot last weekend. congratulations. she looked soo pretty!

funny, them. Although they met just recently, i.e. like a year and a half ago, if not mistaken, they actually 'met' like 20 years ago. hahah kinda nice to write a romantic fiction based on them, huh? (ewww, i'll pass)

anyway, Radi (my bro in law) is the son of my dad's BFF. too bad they didnt hook up when my dad was still around. it would've been splendid, the two best friends celebrating the joining of families, i can easily picture Ust Jamil and my dad standing side by side, smiling proudly.. they were best friends since high school, if not mistaken. huh~~ *wipes away early tears*

so, back to the story, they met somewhat 20 years ago in London, when we were returning to Malaysia from Canada and my dad visited Ust Jamil and family in London. Fate, that. the two of them (the 2 ustazes) sent to overseas at the (almost) same time. Thank God too, cause we get to go to London! (all i remembered that time was- London was such a drab place. its almost always raining or fogging or some sort). here is kakmah and her husband, Radi in London long time ago.

yours truly was somehow not in pic. hmm.. shopping i guess.. :)

May both of you have happiness and a wonderful marriage for the rest of your lives- like our parents!

birthday of princess busyra today!

2011-11-17T11:41:00.001+08:00

pity Busyra. its her birthday today but we didnt manage to do anything for her- no cake, no goodies to give her friends and no presents.

we do plan to do something next week at her nursery but if she is a tad older, she might take exception that mommy and daddy didnt do something on her day. (mommy's excuse) its just that i am quite busy planning and handling her makmah's kenduri thingys. not lah mommy here is the 'orang kuat' but the kepohchi on the hantaran and give away packets.

we're going back to seremban today. hopefully we can at least celebrate with a cake (too bad BR xde kat seremban, at least mommy and daddy can make up for lack of effort by giving a super icecream cake- both aqish and busyra are super fans of BR!)

as for no presents- lol! i have to appologize to her when she is older and understands money. money seemed to be kering this month- due to my outrageous dental bill (dont let me start on my company's benefit!) and make up (required by my new boss) & the cleansing (required by my home boss- ikan) purchased last month. i think, these sudden expenditure totaled to ~rm1.5k. gile kopak mama! you see??

anyway, luv! Happy Birthday.
Mama pray that you and your sisters be anaks yang solehah and berjaya dalam hidup.

for her cake next week, insyaAllah.

why the previous post.

2011-11-16T15:38:00.001+08:00

i am those weird people who liked to read and re-read and re-read what i write. then silently comment on them but never had the effort and energy to actually amend them, well.. unless it was a very BIG embarassing mistake..

there. tu je nak tambah on the previous post. Glad some like to read my ramblings. hahah i do too. wakakaka (weird mode on)

i suddenly remembered a memory on being weird. i am not scared nor ashame to admit that i am. its like, everybody is weird in their own way, right? (RIGHT! dont you dare contradict! you may have at least one habit that may rise an eyebrow or two.. hehe)

it wasnt a significant memory though. when i was in smap, i had this secret crush on this one fellow. dont know why i 'minat' him in the first place, other than he is VERY fair. hahaah. oh, and shy, i guess. thats another thing about me. i tend to have secret crushes on shy guys (ok, 2 je secret crushes :p. only one ended up shackled to ngeee~~ :) )

anyway, i dont think this guy ever knew i liked him during my 5 years in smap- crush lasted for 4 years only. heh. it ended when i gave my 'autograph' book for him to jot something . he has VERY nice handwritting. (ooh, btw, most smapian girls know this- buku autograf. hik hik embarassing gile bile ingat balik!!)
anyway, when he returned my book, i was only looking forward for him to like write a half pager thing, saying maybe 'good luck' or some other goodbye cliches. Instead, he wrote about 2-3 pages kot.. kinda gurly, huh? lol! but, he did mentioned in one of his many many sentences, that he thought i was weird. he wanted to tell me why but then he wrote, nevermind. (wtf?)

yes, aisyah was quite the vindictive-pehal-ko kinda girl back then. ok, vindictive sounds so harsh. no, what i was then, like any homely girl that age who was just given a negative remark by her secret crush was devastated! but i didnt tore up his pages though. i wasnt that heartbroken. but it did end my crush on him. darn.. such a pretty face. hik hik. (babe ikan, you wouldnt mind i put this up right?)

but, thinking back, being weird is not so bad. its part of who you are. and, if your partner loves you regardless (or because...), then all the better.

cheers~

i have this outrageous idea...

2011-11-14T16:51:00.001+08:00

its kinda embarassing. but i somehow feel that it might be a good idea.
maybe not for money- i dont think so. but for my own fullfilment.

what, you ask?

hik hik hik.

i want to write something. i mean really write. (ok, honestly the idea was to write a book)
i got this idea from my bro's blog- like a year ago, he mentioned that he plan to write a book before he dies.
what a great idea. write a book before i die. i always like writting, kucar kacir as it is... i once have this same insane thought when i was in primary. those were the times i like reading malay short stories in magazines. i remembered i wanted to submit my story but never had the gut.

(selit jap) GUT, i found is overated. i think it has to do with 'what do you got to loose?' right? i mean, back then when i was still 12 yo and know nothing of the world, im scared of everything. now, looking back, i wish i wasnt that kid- semua bende nak takut. well, that is another story. you gain confidence, happiness and gut with each passing experience in life. whatever horrible/ wonderful it may be.

back to my writting. i want to write something really from my heart. i dont care if it eventually involves romance- in view that its my line of reading interest nowadays.. but that is certainly NOT the main issue. i like emotion driven stories. how do i get that?

maybe i should start a new blog with a new pen name. LOL! this is soo funny! should i go with it?

oh, before you begin to wonder, i prefer writing my stories in english- i know its not up there in the writters standard level. not even a good level, but i feel strange expressing in proper malay. i mean..

"Aisyah termenung jauh. Fikiran diulit oleh memori semalam. Semalam, di mana ayahnya masih bernyawa dan berkudrat memberi nasihat. Ayah yang ditakuti namun dihormati dan disayangi.."

LOL! i cant. not only my sentences are not berbunga. it sounded like sh*t.
before i know it, ill be writting like those female malay novel authors i hate to read. how do you get to put in humor and wit into those kind of sentences?

sedihh.

2011-11-10T09:32:00.002+08:00

it has been a while since me and the family visited Mines.. walaupun depan rumah je...
anyway, me and aqish's favourite place to singgah everytime we go there is G.ramedia. (Ikan's challenger)

last nite, we went there to search some sticker papers for kakmah's impending kenduri.. and we had the shock of our lives! (ok lah, xde la shock but suprised, nonetheless)

G.ramedia is closing! sobs sobs!
all the books are already in boxes, most stationaries are discounted up to 70%.. some books are discounted up to 90%! ohhh darn! (on the closing, not on the discounted items)

anyway, you guys, if you want to go there for the last time, theres some interesting stationaries there and cheap.
xde mood aa. sedihs. EXCEPT! kalau die ganti dgn Kino or Book Excess or Payless Books. ha, then i would definitely celebrate. janganlah P.opular! epic fail, ok?! heh :p

songs and daughters.

2011-11-08T10:13:00.000+08:00

i like songs too- what else is new??
i usually like to listen and sing the month's favourite.. like always.. untill i got bored of 'em. (so like my daughter- aqish too)

my favo this month is T-Pain's 5 oclock in the morning. (thank god aqish x paham what it is about heheh..)

anyway, while i was busy membuat hantaran untuk kakmah, boleh lak aqish cakap 'ma, asek2 lagu tu je mama nyanyi. tukar la'

haha.. nampaknye my fav song rite now doesnt suit her (we share the (almost) same songs)

reading hiatus lagi... :(

2011-11-04T09:37:00.001+08:00

so I'm finally driving to work nowadays... I'm terribly heavy! but alls well.

the one thing i miss about my commute to work using LRT is my reading. thats the only time i can read without being interrupted. now, no more :( . i dont read as much at home now- too much of B attentions required. i only get to read when the abah prohibit them Bs from using the iPad. time tu je lah mama dapat mengiBook...

nonetheless.. its okay. i've finished most of my favourites pon.
im into movies plak nih. i know its kinda dangerous but its less boring if i can watch movies during the drive home.. 1 jam lebih ok, nak sampai umah... x ke patut tengok movie? hehe

Bye, love! will be missing you tremendously. hope to gain re-acquaintance during my pantang :p

banyak woo... nak try nora roberts and nicholas sparks plak during pantang nih... semua yg beli time serigala jahat ari tu.. weeee~~~~

on this pregnancy no. whatever..

2011-11-02T17:11:00.000+08:00

When people ask me what are the differences between this pregnancy (ehem ehem..insyaAllah..) with the previous ones… I usually don’t have a bullet point answer. The one thing I really notice is that I’ve become this vain person as told before in here.

Now, come to think of it.. there’s one other difference. I am not as sleepy as before. Ke, not yet? No, definitely not like before. I think in the last 3 pregnancies, I was sleepy by the time I hit lunch time- as early as the 4^th month! And I remembered I always sleep during my prayers break (I usually do 2 in 1..). Not this time though! B-)

I only noticed this today cause… contrary to what I just babbled up there, I am really sleepy rite now- BUT! due to loads of work though. Not cause of the hormones. I feel tired but not to the extent that I can hardly open my eyes.

GAWD! So tired and cant wait for this work to settle. Hopefully it’ll end smoothly at the end and I can expect some sugars by the time I get back from my maternity ;-)

nice to be those historical romance characters..

2011-10-31T15:09:00.001+08:00

those having servants to do everything tu... basically yang kaya raya tu la.

there are times when i read em books, i envy the way they have all the time in the world to do what they please.
i am unfortunately those who dont seem to have enough time and energy to for a little indulgence ( i mean, indulgence that i wish i have on a frequent basis.. :) )

i envy that they can only enjoy time with their spouse cause all the boring chores are done by servants.
i envy their children sleep in a separate room.
i envy their time walking in the gardens and woods, basically their quiet time with nature.
i envy their oh-so-wonderful way of saying things.. very proper.
i envy their gentlemanlyness.. and ladylyness... (yes, i do create my own vocabulary)

but what i envy most rite now is they seemed to have plenty time with the spouses. without the interuption of their kids. dont get me wrong, i love me kids to death. but sometimes... especially at night, i would love to have the bedroom all to ourselves.

you know, not only the you know what. but sometimes, its hard to find a time for both of me and ikan to just talk and do nothing in bed. usually, the kids will join us. and that means that the conversation will be about them. and whenever both of us tried to talk between ourselves, they managed to stir back the conversation to them.

see... i dont have enough time. i need more time. i need time for me hubs, me kids, me ibadahs, me hobbies..

note to self: x baik mengeluh..

...

2011-10-28T15:11:00.000+08:00

I miss him.

I’m wretched without him.

Ohh hormones! Its Friday, for goodness sake! Its supposed to be merry!

gossip artis plak.. for the first time.

2011-10-28T14:10:00.000+08:00

i just cant help it. im obsessed with Anniston's love interest. sebab utamanya is because i hate brangelina and infidelity and homewrecker and all that.

actually, it started as hatred to brangie je but after (again... my reading gets the better of me.. whahaha) reading What I Did For Love by SEP, i was really looking forward to when Anniston finds her devilish handsome sonofagun and live happiliy ever after... just like the book.

honestly, before this, i never heard of Justin Therox.. but seriously???? i cant help it. he is one handsome devil! way to go jen!!!
between pitt and therox, i vote therox to be 10 times HOTter than pitt, :p
see...

ooo.. btw, have anyone watched Horrible Bosses yet? deng funny... and surprisingly sexy Anniston was sooo different!

hahahha terasa macam blog gosip artis. but no, saje nak letak gambo therox yg hensem giles...
hahahah kalau aku tambah mata therox yg harem cun gile tu cam ikan, ade yg nak baling aku ngan stapler x? hehehe :)

how far do you believe in the 'gangguan jin'

2011-10-25T15:24:00.000+08:00

I am NOT boasting in any way. I do believe that some cases, yes, malays-unfortunately do face this problem, I blame the deng media in this country for exposing the act of ‘bomoh’ and all that crap to the rakyat. I mean, ok, they are there. But you don’t have to popularize them, it just makes some people having ideas in their heads.

Anyway, on this topic, I have a bunch of things to say, voicing out my opinions but I don’t want to raise my blood pressure today..

There’s one thing though I would label stupid-you-got-to-be-joking-me… those claiming a person being utterly snobbish is due to gangguan jin. Really??? Someone can be excused for being snooty? You treat a person like she’s a frigging vermin, even though she is your maid- a human being worked her asses off for your comfort (oo, which by the way you are not paying her salary pun…), and your boorish behavior is dismissed just because you are not yourself?

I don’t care whether you are a family member or not, or you have such a high education background.. its still stupid.

A snob is a snob by choice. Like other sins, you yourself are responsible for how you conduct yourself. Tensen jin2 asek2 dipersalahkan. Jatuh tangga, jin kacau, kejam kat another human being, sebab jin, lampu rosak- jin… GISH! Give them a break already. Be responsible of your own self!

Oh.. I don’t simply despise people (well, I try not to…) I understand some people make the wrong choice, as long as they learn from it and humbled by it, I don’t care that much. But this is too much. Ada sebab ke jadi sombong?

PS: this is not from my own experience. Its just a story from the victim. Imagine, I myself is being emotionally afflicted by this person’s snobbishness.. can you imagine the poor girl yang dianggap vermin itu?

Its very wrong for another human being to make another human being feel less human.

inappropriate for the guys (well, except for ikanbabe)

2011-10-24T12:35:00.000+08:00

Warning awal2.. this is kinda disgusting for some.. so if you tend to be a visualize sort of person, please refrain yourself from further reading this post.

Kene buat disclaimer : I am writing this is because to enlighten those in the dark and a reminder to me as well J.

Its about our undies, ladies.

So, I think everyone would know the difference between wearing ugly undies and sexy ones. The sexy ones just makes you feel sexier and more confident, heheh I think ;-)

Anyway, do you know that wearing sexy undies, especially t.hongs are very comfortable during pregnancies? Ok, in my case, I had endured 3 c-sects and sometimes my scar itches or its just not comfortable when I wear normal ones.

(FYI, I cataloged my undies as- normal (hmm… how to illustrate?...), t.hongs/ t.angas and grandma undies)- Yes, I have all 3 kinds.

Normal- I wear them in normal- those serious days bla bla bla.

T.hong/t.anga- I wear them most of the time now as it makes me walllahhhhh B-)

Grandma- these are the ones yg cover your tummy tuh, which I spare for my previous pregnancies and pantang.

GISH! I was sooo wrong then! YOU SHOULD NOT use grandma undies during pregnancies sebab wearing the sexy ones are much much more comfortable! (I just hope the shape wouldn’t be ruined..)

It is much nicer to my scars! And definitely it does not suffocate my tummy.

No wonder, when I told kaklong (my cousin) that ‘oops, I would need to stock up my grannies for my pregnancy’ (during that 1^st trimester), she gave me this look. Disclaimer lagi- she has 4 kids and all c-sect, like moi.

So, for those in the dark like me, try it, if you haven’t already. It really makes a different to your day. (yelah, kan time pregnant ni, you need all the comfortable measures you can find J )

Cheers~

experience carrying a boy.

2011-10-17T10:16:00.000+08:00

i had a terrible tooth ache for the last 2 weeks. i was literally kicking and swearing in the office (aku da warning awal2 to them that i tend do dont-give-a-f*** when i am pregnant... :| ).

at last, i went to see the dentist near my office (since my normal dentsit is in serdang and her schedule is full that day...). bloody! it costed me rm350 for a stinking filling aja! but that was not the main problem pon.. the main problem was with my right bottom wisdom tooth... and this mahal doctor said due to me being pregnant, he cant extract the thing as he needs to x-ray me etc etc... and i asked for the cost.. guess?? RM1,500 for tooth extraction ,people!
anyway, i ended up with some antibiotics and paracetamol for the aching...(plus the filling for another unrelated tooth...)

so, a week passed and still my tooth hurts like the devil! it gets worst when ikan brought us to genting and the kids cant get fun cause mommy here cant go outside to the cold cause mommy's tooth hurts.

i end up 'lantaklah... gi je lah cabut!' as an emergency case at my serdang dentist.
boy, was she cool!!
she was so confident that she was confused with the x-ray issue. her concerns were just that i might not tolerate the surgery pain.. cause she cant give me other than paracetamol too.. and i was like, 'xpe doctor. i rather endure 1 day of excruciating pain than a week long annoying-and-berdenyut2-pain'.
And... 30 mimnutes later, the SOB is gone from me mouth. BUT! what a pain it was when the numbness subsided! menitis air mata den!

LOL! this is soo off topic. Anyway, i met with my gynae yesterday and she said that this is one of the dugaan carrying a boy. They take away your calcium like no one's business. :)

So ladies.. who havent carried a boy yet.. Make extra sure you have plenty of additional calcium in you! (it gets worst during nak beranak- where the back ache is OMG!, says her...)

tats!

me, the lil red reading hood..

2011-10-12T16:51:00.001+08:00

So, I met with the wolf @ serdang.

It was mag-ni-fuh-cent! The smell when first entering the hall was like the euphoria I felt when I stepped into ikea. It was, seriously.

No words can describe! I bought a book by SEP which I already have but because the one I have is a bit wear (favorite pick for random reading) and BECAUSE ITS FREAKIN EIGHT BUCKS. And I also found few of those I haven’t owned yet from SEP for also rm8!! B-) I loiiikkeeee.

A special thank you to my babyyyy for bringing me there on their first day- that was last Friday, everyone, hoyehhh!!

Anyway, for those who like books (not to mention LURVEE), go there! Ample of parking space. Frequent shuttle busses (no, it wasn’t inconvenient at all, I say!) and clean- this especially the toilets J.

If I wasn’t sick in my bed the last 2 days during my mc, I surely had gone there again and again..

I hope they would be using MAEPS again next year. J ngeeeee~~~~~~

eww..

2011-10-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

Camne one of my traffic sources was from a p0*n site?????

Ewwww ewww ewwww

another of Steve Jobs.

2011-10-06T10:42:00.000+08:00

Again, this is all due to the book- Hot Shot and none due to his contribution to Apple.

Deng, I feel like a sad ending to a good novel. RIP.

i am definitely not fit for the job...

2011-10-04T17:13:00.000+08:00

For background, I work in Product Development under the Sales & Marketing Division for my bank. It didn’t started out as a dept under S&M but somehow rather (which I understand and fully agree) the dept is sucked into the Sales Division. Basically developing products for the sales people to sell..

And you know la, the traits for being a relationship manager (they call themselves these days…).. i.e. sales people. Always charming, kissing Ses and stuff..

But, I just couldn’t, you know?

(no, I am not doing sales but the culture of being customer friendly must be applied to all in the division..)

Heck, if someone is being seriously stupid, xde koje aku nak ikut je.

And, being bitchy pregnant didn’t help either. So, instead of being a dotty little thing, smiling and yess’ing to everyone, I held my freakin stance and have my word. Lantaklah kalau kau x setuju.

Ok, cerita die senang je. For the last 3 months of my pregnancy, I asked the Admin manager if there is a parking space in the building I can subscribe to for only 3 months. The manager seemed accommodating and understanding.

The stooopod parking officer however, didn’t. If there is indeed no parking space for my request, just say so.

There’s no need to penalise me for other tenants refused to surrender their parking card with the same request of temp parking.

Elok2 I have to pay rm400, tetiba this freaking guy is asking me rm700, fearing that I will continue my subscription even after the 3 months ended. Even, after I told him that I don’t intend to pay the monthly fee when I go off my maternity and definitely will surrender it (I mean, kalau I x surrender, you will forfeit my card deposit, kan????) I mean, how much of security do you want?

But, I suspect, this is a typical male being controlling.. saje nak tunjuk ‘I-control-every-freakin-thing’. Bloody! I don’t NEED the parking dumb S!

Hahaha. Terlari dari tajuk..

My point was to say- I sucked in being polite (kiss Ser) to the stupidest people. Hence, I am definitely not the job for Sales.

(I know, I know, this is a bad trait as you need to treat ALL people nice, even the stupid ones.. but really???) ok lah, I’ll try harder, demit!

baking and packing 40+ cookie packets..

2011-09-30T10:46:00.000+08:00

Is tiring indeed!

so, whats with the new look?

2011-09-29T11:07:00.000+08:00

(gambar xde kene mengene.. just saje nak letak gambo busyra tgh nak bangun tido... :) )

Nothing. I’m just bored with the old one. No fancy gizmos added tho.. x reti, seriously.

Nyway, what am I up to this week?

Lots of baking (cookies) and nursing…

Its aqish’s birthday last Sunday and this Friday (tomorrow…) she’ll be celebrating it with her tadika friends..

Very simple yet time consuming la preparations kali ni.. mostly because we want to accommodate (yet filter) party pack requests from the birthday girl herself. So, she wanted cookies (pass), chocolate milk yg kids tu (pass), crown etc (x pass), marker and small whiteboard (x pass ofkos!), Cadbury chocolates yg kecik2 tu (pass), banana (pass tapi x muat plastic bag… so dropped last minute), spec mata hitam (x pass).

Hehehe.. berangan cukup anak den sorang nih… :p

And then she wanted me to bake her a ‘Hello Kitty’ birthday cake (deng Youtube!!!) When I told her I don’t know how to do it, you know what she suggested? Honestly??

‘Ma, kita pergi beli kertas dia la ma.. kat tesco ada kot. Mama

cuba

tanya yang macam polis tu (i.e. jaga)’

‘Tak pun kita cari kat kedai buku, Ma…’

By this time, aku rasa die macam paham kewujudan ‘sugar sheet’ (eh, ni ke panggil die?).

So, my end game would be to create a ‘Hello Kitty’ logo and tempah one from Secret Recipe..

I don’t know whether I have the kudrat for cooking other menus or not. Leave it to Aqish to request Nasi Ayam, Ayam Goreng Mama and Sausage. Not that much tapi at the same time Hailey is not feeling well rite now and she likes to melepek with me.. basically restricting my movements a bit..

Last night we were packing her cookies for her friends and now Busyra is excited for her birthday! She wants a Barbie (what else…) logo. Shishhh… daughters! J

rules for the kids...#1

2011-09-22T16:55:00.000+08:00

So, I am reading this book by Shannon Stacey- Exclusively Yours (romance la apalagi…)

Anyway, I like this rule (one of the parent character in the book) stand by with her kids-

‘You do the crime in public, you do time in public..’

Nice, isn’t it? Ok, my kids belum la mature utk faham this lagi but I like to adopt this, should I ever need to. J

meh kite bercakap pasal birth control...

2011-09-21T17:30:00.000+08:00

Tapi, warning awal2, ini bukan essay ilmiah. Ni essay bual kosong. There.

Apart from getting the baby boy news, me and the gynae had a brief discussion on the types of birth control I should be planning to use.

1- Condom & withdrawal- since these were the methods we used after Busyra, which was proven to be ineffective, so kite pangkah this one siap2.

2- Pills- Memandangkan I am not a discipline person when it comes to pills (even my vitamins pun…) oh well, lets just conclude I don’t do pills well. Although, for you guys yang have absolute no problem when it comes to discipline eating pills, this one is good. Good for your skin and… uhm.. I forgot. But something good. But then, I heard testimonials from friends that their libido went down the hill.. its hard for the woman (I think the word was ‘dry’ x salah) when with the husband.

3- IUD Copper- the word copper itself dah membuatkan aku terkedu. Wait till you look at the deng thing (go to the nearest LPPKN clinic..) scary I tell you!!. But the risks- hilang dalam rahim, period x menentu, and scar dlm rahim… urghhhhh x mau la..

4- IUD Silicon- RM800 for 5 years. Hilang dlm rahim, period x tentu sket.. apa lagi ntah.. tapi x banyak sangat side effect..

5- Implanol- hormonal patch implanted under your skin.. the side effects? Gemok and …. Wait for it.. tumbuh jerawat. Ikan dengar je jerawat terus ‘no, no, no’ cam die plak yg nak amek…

6- NuvaRing- this one.. I think I might choose. You insert it in ur vajayjay yourself setiap 1hb and keluarkan setiap 22 hb. Still hormone base.. and not so much of side effects… BUT!!! I cant breastfeed if I am using, some more, it will likely decrease the milk production.

Hmmm… susah kan nak buat decision? I don’t want to ‘ikat’ yet… we are only 31. mana tau by 35/ 36 terasa rindu nak ade anak kecik… which I always hear from married people that age…

What to do what to do..

alhamdulillah.

2011-09-19T13:43:00.000+08:00

Met with my gynae yesterday.

InsyaAllah, im having a boy. :-D

Yes, I am very very very HAPPY!

hehe gatal nak tulis lagi. ngeee

2011-09-15T16:00:00.000+08:00

This one is about my pregnancy.

You want in in a little embarrassing secret?

I think my pregnancy this time I feel a tinie minie bit of different, although overall im still bitchy and all that.. hehe

Oh, my appetite is humongous! (I sometimes buy 2 pack of heavy food for my lunch ngeeeee) but that’s the same ‘ol thing during my last pregnancies too.

What I really feel different is HOW VAIN I’VE BECOME. (twit, I don’t see myself as vain in my normal self. I love me but I don’t go and analyze and giving myself puji-pujian or kritikan about myself when I look myself inside the mirror.

TETAPI! Deng, I really LOVE looking at my pregnant body! Hehehe J

(I hope if you are my GIRL friends..if you know me personally J ) if… (aside from my darlin’ ikan…) you happen to be a guy.. uhm, appreciate you don’t continue to read.. J

I love the fact that my br3asts are fuller and firmer.. weeeeeeee!

I love that my S is bigger too J

I love my big S tummy (although when the stretch marks starts to pop up later I’ll retract this statement..)

I sometimes feel that im getting bigger at the arms and legs too but most of time (yes..) I feel satisfied with the proportion of my body. Macam x rase bertambah tembam.. rasenyelah..

I am grateful I don’t have the ‘elephant leg’ thingy and my shoe size is still the same. Deng, I could possibly pull off wearing high heels.

SEEE? I have become this VAIN VAIN SANGAT VAIN pregnant mommy B-)

You are allowed to roll your eyes, you know? I mean… kalau org lain cakap cam ni, aku da lama ‘seriously?’

Tapi kan, I don’t feel like im leaning towards make up2 tu lah.. (before you suggest ‘maybe anak laki kot’ sebab mak akan rase nak cantek je…)

Oh well. There you go. J

best pics of the Bs in their baju raya :)

2011-09-15T14:21:00.000+08:00

This picture was taken 1 week before raya, just received the baju raya package from atok in aloq setaq..

As requested by their atok, we took a picture of them Bs wearing the 1^st day baju raya, since our first raya was in seremban and all that…

Anyway, I always smile (with a touch of pang…) when I look at this picture.

Tell you, this is the best ‘raya’ picture of all 3 Bs looking at the camera!

Look at aqish, my 1^st princess.. doesn’t she look like a teenager? Hahaha yes, that’s what I saw here..

Ohhh my lovely lovely kids… mama and abah love you to death.

Be anak2 yang solehah, ye? Aminn. J

i just gotten some news.

2011-09-14T12:09:00.000+08:00

I am and should be happy. Cuma, I just hope it doesn’t backfire me someday.

Thank you Allah!

aisyah marah lagi. deng pregnancy hormones!

2011-09-09T17:21:00.000+08:00

I HATE IT LIKE HELL when people wasting my freakin time discussing and raising stupid issues.

I don’t mind it if your query is legit, but kalau bende tu da terang tang tang aku letak and ko tanye pasal mana bende tu… x aku melenting? And then what was the response? ‘ohh…’ !@#$%$#@#!

And for god sake!!!!!! Cosmetic punye hal pun nak kene double work??? As in now? When everything is still a DRAFT???

Are you just plain STUPID or are you dengki aku da siapkan keje weh?

Pastu ada hati suh aku stay after maternity??? Like HELL!

nak tulih apa eh?

2011-09-06T16:55:00.000+08:00

Heheh. Keje opis setel for the time being. Jadik, aku kebusanan sebentar.

Tell me, what should I do?

Oh.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all, especially my friends.

Jemput datang beraya kat umah ambo, yg masih rupe cam baru pindah dulu, except for it being duller and more bersepah.

Seriously, gambar anak lagi 2 org tu pun x hang2 pun. Silap.. x print2 pun lagi. Frame je da beli. Tu pun mana ntah. L

Gambar raya ada dlm iPod tapi apple being apple, byk plak die punye convert menconvert bagai baru boleh share gambar. So, knowing how ‘rajin’ I am.. you know how that ends. Tapi leh nengok aa kat FB. Syok gak nengok gambar raya kenkawan.. (yg mana keluar kat newsfeed aku je la..) Anak memasing comey gler. Especially anak harizah. Haaha keluar plak nama member sini. J. But seriously, aku vote Asha niece Hi5 paling comey!

Apalagi apalagi…

(you see betapa tgh busannye I sekarang?) hahah sekali ngan tensen baru abis buat keje :p

Dah ah. Good day!

funny how i feel this relates to me personally...

2011-08-25T10:02:00.000+08:00

Steve Jobs resigned from Apple.

Tetibe aku plak rasa sedih, like sedih as in my fav boss resigns, camtu.

No, I never worked in apple. J gosh, that would be lovely!

Nor, I am a true fan of his products or him…

But.. (ok, don’t laugh! I take my books seriously, ok?)

I read one of SEP’s books that mentioned him and the struggle of all techies that era.. somewhere 70s, if not mistaken.

Those young ‘uns in Silicon Valley…

Although the book (Hot Shot) is about a fictional hero/heroine and fictional company, but they were involved in the whole struggle as the two Steves were.. and the two Steves were mentioned more than once in the book. Like I was there in their initial struggle.

Haha… I couldn’t be any weirder, huh? But still.. I am sad.

Cookies for My Bees

2011-08-22T15:47:00.001+08:00

I promised Aqish I’d bake the Famous Amos cookies for her. I somehow misplaced the original recipe.. (I haven’t made them for at least a year!). I told her that I don’t have the recipe. You know what she said?

‘Dekat computer kan ada, Ma? Carik je..’

*scratches my head..

how in the world does she know that we can search recipes in the net??

Anyway, here’s the recipe gotten from the net, as advised by Aqish:

FAMOUS AMOS’ CHOCOLATE COOKIES RECIPE
Ingredients
1 bar butter (approx 250g)
1/2 cup granulated sugar
1/2 cup brown sugar
2 eggs
1 tsp. vanilla essence
2 cups plain flour
2 1/2 cups oatmeal, blended to powder
1/2 tsp. salt
1 tsp. baking soda
1 tsp. baking powder
340g chocolate chips
250g Chocolate bar, grated
100g nuts (your choice), chopped

Method
1. Preheat oven at 190C
2. Cream the butter and both sugars
3. Add eggs and vanilla, mix evenly
4. Fold in flour, oatmeal, salt, baking powder, and soda.
5. Add chocolate chips, grated chocolate bar and nuts. Mix well (I used my hands in a food grade plastic bag, as it is too thick for my mixer).
6. Roll into small balls (around 1 inch in diameter) and place two inches apart on a cookie sheet/tray.
7. Bake for 10 minutes at 190 C.

When the cookies are removed, they are soft. But when left cool, it will harden up and become slightly crisp outside (but chewy inside).

I know its kinda last minute but trust me, its all easy peasy! J

doa

2011-08-11T10:12:00.001+08:00

Aku phobia.

Malam tadi Hailey susah nak tidur, arching2 badan die and crying VERY loud (nasib baik, I guess?)

Tapi Alhamdulillah dia badan dia x panas.

Dia tak mo putting.

Susu Alhamdulillah minum.. walaupun x sebanyak biasa tapi masih dikategorikan sebagai banyak.

Aku phobia sebab Busyra’s meningitis dulu…

Frens, tolong doakan yeah? So that she is ok?

Eventho you all baca dalam hati, I hope it counts as a doa.

“Ya Allah, kau jauhkanlah Baiduri Hailey dari segala penyakit dan sakit. Sihatkanlah dia, Ya Allah”

Thanks you guys.

books- guylit

2011-08-10T12:29:00.001+08:00

I’ve been trying my hands on male authors.. uhm… you know what I mean. (dang, too much of Male thoughts corrupting me mind!! @$!#!!)

I tried a guylit book by Matt Dunn, and I guess, I mistakenly chose ‘Accidental Proposal’ for my first read.

And I was in a freakin’ badmood for the whole 2 weeks! (yes, it took me 2 freakin’ weeks to at last tap that red bar at the end of the ebook- no thanks, Kobo for your ‘easiness’ in cheating reading books!).

Anyway, to summarize what I endured- I HATE IT FULL STOP. Lame and boring giler. Sadly, there was once mentioned somewhere (quotes) that to know how men thinks, read Matt Dunn. I feel sorry for men if this is true. U guys sure have such complicated thoughts.. but you chose the most-not-what-women-would-prefer to be said out loud.

This guy (the hero in this book) reminds me of that ‘Marry Me’ song by Bruno Mars. Giler x romantic cara ko propose.. :p

This Edward, he thought his then girlfriend proposed to him, and he assumed he’s engaged, got the ring bla bla bla…but never ever ever had the decency to really confront his ‘fiance’ on his doubt. Stooooopid. And there were other doubts too.. semua wasn’t confronted. At the end, most of his doubts were cleared by his fiance’s admission, not because he asked, tho! Stooooopid lagi.

And whats with this hero being so thick headed- selalu salah tafsir? C’mon!!

And not trusting his fiancé? I hope not all men (especially ikan) are not like si Edward nih. You have doubts, honey, you come and ask me point blank.

Ke, is this how men view their world? Dang menyedihkan dan menghampakan. I soooo much prefer female chic lit and romance authors. Imagination and women fantasy thumbs up. J

On fb.

2011-08-04T11:28:00.000+08:00

Ok, I’m no popular person, not one of those which people dream to be friends with.. but just like blogs, we have our own reason and criteria, do we not?

1- On accepting friends

Ok, masa zaman memula FB baru muncul dulu, I was like those people who accept anybody, cause the truth is, those times, theres no hanky panky going on in FB. Those requesting are truly acquaintances or friends or whatever. But the reason is connecting, friendship.. and all that crap.

And…. Those times, when a ‘Baiduri Hailey’ requests to be your friend, you definitely know who this Baiduri Hailey is, as in that is her true name. Or some other names you recognize. I don’t mind those. Walaupun the name is shorten to B Hailey or whatever. And then, the photos, they are genuine.. well at least almost 90% of the photos are. I know why some people don’t put their photos- there’s a lot of psychos out there, and your privacy what not… ok. Understood.

But nowadays! OMG! I don’t even know where to begin!

I don’t accept everyone nowadays to tell you the truth. Even though you put your full name.. sebab honestly, sometimes your full name is too fancy hehehhe J. Basic idea is, if you really want to be FB friends, just introduce properly.. they provide you the appropriate fields, didn’t they? Very easy peasy- ‘hey, Hailey ni, your cutest doter’. See..?

Terlanjur bulan ramadhan nih… so, if your friend request happened to be ignored by someone (particularly, moi), don’t take it personal. I may not recognize your fancy mommy-given name J. Sincere apologies by the way.

Oh, and I don’t accept any business whatsoever anymore too.. except personally requested by a trusted friend. ;-)

2- On leaving wall posts

Honestly, I just prefer to blab everything about my life here.. in this blog. So, its either you’re my friend or you’re just a stranger reading about me.. well, I value my privacy too… corny as it is ;-)

3- On leaving comments

I do tooo am active in a way in FB! I put comments when I see fit. Even my comments aren’t techy… no tagging (don’t know how), lots of misspellings (blame it on iPod’s dictionary- yes, pathetic me, im one of those whose company blocks FB and im stuck with unblocked internet via wifi through Aqish’s iPod. *sighs…* well, at least ada gak connection, rite? syukurrr

4- On Posting Pics

Oooohhh… sorry.. I try not to do this. You know, the whole privacy thingy.. tapi, I don’t mind at all if my friends tag me in theirs tho. Im not that private.

(hahah, ikan did upload some of our pics in bandung, I think.. last time.. I don’t mind this, like I said. Meylu but its ok..)

5- On Blocking/ deleting you from my FB

Tell me, if you think you have been dropped from being a fren in anyone’s FB, do you go and confront the poor girl and ask her why? I mean… cant you get the picture? Paham-paham jelah. I don’t mind if a fren dropped me or blocked me.. they have their own reason, I guess.

Ok, masa awal2 dulu, pernah la aku termistake function from FB and when I wanted to block their posts on my newsfeeds, tetibe I ter block them altogether. Oops, sorry! :p. tapi tu awal2 FB ler… tapi, kalau nak confirm org tu deleted purposely you or not, invite to be your friend again. If she/he doesn’t accept… you NOW know :p

But, this is only me. Lain org, lain cara.

my arwah ayah's birthday today.

2011-08-03T15:27:00.001+08:00

Al-Fatihah.

‘Ya Tuhanku, kasihanilah kedua-dua ibubapaku sebagaimana mereka mengasihani aku sewaktu aku kecil’

i hope 5 months flies...

2011-07-21T09:00:00.000+08:00

Things are getting ugly in the office. This internal war between 2 ppl.. I might be caught in the middle.

“Dear you,

You think I like working with you? The only thing that stopped me from running away is because im pregnant. You don’t drag me in your war with that other person. I don’t care about you. Why you instigated the war in the first place was your stupod business. U treat ppl like dirt, some other ppl will treat you the same or I guess in your case- worst.”

KARMA, people! Lets not forget that!

Be good to people. Be good to your environment. Be a khalifah.

FW: LIKE Picture kat FB

2011-07-14T15:01:00.000+08:00

This is from a colleague. Hahah.. me too, have nothing to do LOL!

Assalam

Sorry ganggu..

Hahaha...liza tgh xde keje nih dduk merapu la

Masuk photo contest kat FB

So nak minta jasa baik kakak-kakak n kawan-kawan

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Pastu “LIKE” gambar liza n hubby…

Advance tuk smua yg sudi ”LIKE”

reading... strikes again!

2011-07-04T14:28:00.001+08:00

So.. back to books.. I was actually in reading hiatus for some time. Not so from buying them tho…

Anyway, its back. Ikan hates it when I get all excited and emo with some particular books.. he’ll put on his ‘ok, I’ll try to understand face’ and I think, secretly wished I finish without asking his opinion. Hahah, yes, I understand you, babe!

Nevertheless, I need someone to ‘bebel’ on what I found from a book. There. That’s my justification.

So, I’m discarding my romance shelves and digging into classics nowadays. And, though I tried to avoid male authors (sebab x suka this one short story by Gisham…) I took up (and surprisingly enjoyed) a book by Narayan. I read ‘The Painter of Signs’, which he wrote in 1976 (at the age of 70, ok!!) and I liked it. Deep thinking after finishing the story tho (which I hate to do after reading…) but I was intrigued to know more about him and to read ALL of his books (same case of JM and SEP).

I don’t know whether I’ll succeed in finding all of his books or not.. or maybe, he’ll turned out to be like Jane Austen (I read 2 of her books, distracted by the 2005 movie of PnP-[MacFadyen is sooooooo Darcy!] and never returned to her books, how sad…). But I cant wait to read his first 3 novels (Swami & Friends, Bachelors of Art and The English Teacher), mainly because I wanted to read the latter, to understand his grief when his wife of 6 years died.. (oh well, there goes my secret. I’m such a sucker for human (read: love) relationships- he didn’t re-married, how romantic!) oh, oh!! I also want to read Grandmother’s Tales because it was a true story, and it was mentioned in The Painter of Signs.

Sighs~~~ there it goes again.. my agony in finding books. Tho most bibliophile has its own standards of collection, mine (I don’t see myself as a bibliophile, but as to collecting books…) I just want them with me, no matter how un-uniformly it looks on the bookshelf, as long as I can get it CHEAP. Lol!

P.S. I don’t know anyone (among my frens, I mean…) yet who like/read Narayan.

I wish to mangadu domba of my feelings with you. Hehehe. And my mangadu domba is soo female like, so my wish is simply a GIRLfriend who reads him too. Please, please tell me!

kak lagi...

2011-06-30T11:59:00.000+08:00

I AM ONLY FREAKIN’ 31 YEARS OLD!!

Deng these people! Ok, I’m not that mad tapi heyyy women can be sensitive about this stuff ok??

This has some relation to an earlier post here.. and my struggle to fight old age hahahahah

Since the other half of my dept moved to PJ, my remaining dept moved office also and we are sharing with these sales people- relationship managers they call themselves. *shrug* yeah, whatever.

They are alright. Bunch of worldly sales people, I guess. They chit chat with me sometimes..

‘Aisyah, da di da..’

NAMUN.. one fine day. I made a comment saying.. ‘oohhh my daughter loves to imitate Justin bieber’s hairstyle..’

‘eh… you have a daughter meh?’ says this 33ish manager.. (I don’t know her age but I really really suspect she is older than me)

‘ya lah. I have 3 of them’ (mak ai.. when you say it out loud I do look old now, aint I?)

‘….(speechless).. I cant believe this. Kenanga is always like this. Sometimes I thought this person is not even married yet like her and suddenly she has daughters!’ (talking to her team as well as me, ok, time ni rase cam kembang jap.. indirectly she’s saying I look young.. rite?? :p)

THEN.. all of a sudden… ALL of her team starts calling me ‘Kak Aisyah’

HUARGHHHHHHHHH!!! Seriously?????

‘Hi Kak’

‘Morning, Kak’

‘Kak Aisyah, boleh tolong ….’ And on and on… yeap, the ‘kak’ is there to remain. Deng! :p

why people lie?

2011-06-20T13:02:00.001+08:00

I have this colleague.. my personal opinion of her (even I am quite office-kamcing with her), I think she likes to lie. Sometimes, I understand her reasoning, but most of the time I just don’t get it. I know I’m no saint.. I sometimes lie too but I rarely spin tales (exclude my younger days, no??)

But although she is a nice person, a good officemate and mother, I just don’t get it why she likes to lie so deng much.

You know, sometimes you can tell whether a person lies or genuinely telling you something?

I don’t know.. I don’t mind it actually because I am soo used to her but I think a lot of her problems (and mine too!) can be solved if you just take the honest way out. Cakap terus terang, kan senang?

No, im not angry at her because, yes although she disappointed me in something she promised… but im just clueless how sometimes people can be so deng complicated.. padahal the issue is so deng simple.. if you tell the truth.

Sekian from Aisyah the preacher J

something serius plak.

2011-06-16T14:59:00.001+08:00

I was actually writing about how crazy I am during pregnancy (lol! De ja vu 4 kali…)

Anyway, I secara x sengaja bagi comment kat one of my senior’s fb.. pasal se.xual edu.cation.

Which, of course aku sangat setuju. Well, apparently ada la yg x setuju kan?

But seriously guys? Frens? Don’t you think this is important?

Ok, this might be only MY opinion.. but I strongly feel that girls need to know true knowledge about their bodies and not to hear and trust rumors and gossips. That is very dangerous, you know.

I remembered when I was still in SRK. K.GV.. there was this girl- my age.. she told everyone that she was ‘raped’ by her uncle. Everyone believed her. She said she got pregnant what not. We believed her. Oklah, that was masa derjah 6.. the only ilmu we had was on our monthly periods. Looking back, I seriously don’t know why she told us that story… did she ever.. I mean, being ‘raped’? or was this girl seeking attention and pity or what other non real reason. I hope and seriously think (now, I mean..) that she wasn’t tho..

Then, when I was in SMAP, there’s this ‘dara’ prank.. wtf betul.. we ofkos, knew we were all virgins.. but then this prank started saying that due to the lack of whatever signs, you are actually NOT a virgin. Believe it or not, most of us believed it on the spot.. some cried, wanted to run from school. See? This is all because of lack of knowledge. The prankster herself pun aku badget tertipu jugak but sebab die kene dulu, then she has the advantage of conning other people.

The thing is.. you want our girls to protect their virtue tapi to me, just implanting the idea, semaikan iman, basically based on believe are not enough. They need to know what they are guarding. What happens to their bodies. Basically, they need to know consequences after certain actions.. in this case penetration. And the danger of it.

Bukan kita nak ajar supaya they can circumvent being pregnant and allow penzinaan, but we are telling them what is there inside them, what happens to their bodies and be confident with it, cherish it, love it. The saying ‘kalau x kenal maka x cinta’ also applies here. What is there to cherish when you don’t know it well enough?

The moral decision of what they want to do with their bodies is where the semaian iman comes to play.

Well, this is all IMHO. Up to everyone’s opinion. But you bet your S that I will have this talk to my daughters. Don’t want them to hear stories about sex, pregnancies from their friends.. ;)

no secret any longer.

2011-06-07T14:45:00.001+08:00

Dear friends..

People say that having lots of kids membawa banyak rezeki. Amin.

Even my arwah dad said ‘kak teh murah rezeki sebab kak teh intim dengan suami…’ and I believe 110% what arwah ayah said.

Kite pregnant lagi la. J

Why I didn’t kecoh like I used to before? It was all the doubts and fears having my fourth so soon (my 4^th c-sect).

But im okay now and cant wait to welcome HIM (aminnn) to the world- this DECEMBER!!! OMG! OMG!

Ok. End of announcement. Enjoy your day y’alls~~

hmmm...

2011-05-18T09:21:00.001+08:00

Again??

Yes. Again.

Good Luck, me.

its only wednesday...

2011-05-11T09:50:00.001+08:00

And I will be seeing him only on Sunday… ohhhhhh wretched wretched kursus!

Xde mood.

Twit. Aisyah memang emo and farelong. Full stop.

the secret again

2011-05-04T15:39:00.001+08:00

I think its about time I implement the secret again… don’t you think?

Negative feeling and thoughts does not help you.

So, how do I shrug the bad feeling off and live like the happiest devil despite?

Ok, aku rasa aku da nak period. Tu sebab perasaan cam harem L

health story

2011-04-26T12:00:00.001+08:00

So, me and my hubs went for a full body health examination yesterday and discovered ‘news’. Some good, some not so..

Anyway, we are trying to live a healthier lifestyle from now and onwards… I sure hope we are both discipline enough! (no, we are not changing drastically.. but rather gradually..)

Things started and to be started:

1- Me resuming my propranolol for me headaches.. at least for 6 months (started today- 26^th April 2011)

2- Healthier cooking at home (to halve our current santan and minyak intake..) and once in a while splurge the deep frying what not hehehe

3- Yeay! No need to control what we eat outside!! Wuhuuuuu! (Thank you.. uhmm whats her name…)

4- Exercise!! Every weekend.

5- Appointment with bone dr…soon.

I am glad I did this.. the exam thing.. with ikan some more. Personally I felt like being in ‘The Amazing Race’, with the running around the hospital, ticking out the checklist and stuff.. it was kinda fun (dgn spouse tapi…)

career dilemma

2011-03-29T10:07:00.001+08:00

Albeit, not a major one.

I work in an ok company. Non-stressful yet not so huge in compensation either ;-). I am quite ok I guess working here.

Like the experience I’ve gained and to be gained. Like the working culture and cooperation from most (like 90%, ok?) people..

YET.

I think I’m beginning to x tahan with my boss. I know how he is- even when I first joined, so basically nothing surprises me there. He is not evil.. just weird and… seriously ‘kejap ni, kejap tu’ kinda decision maker (which a lot of people are too).

And I don’t think I’m the sort of people leaving a company because of another person, be it a weird one. Especially when I don’t think that person is intentionally doing me ill.

Should I be content? Maybe for another year or so?

OR.

Should I take this as an instinct to leave while I’m still sane? hahah

(yes, yes.. this is the 2^nd time I complained about yet another boss…I guess I blame Andrew. He shouldn’t be a darn good boss in the first place… J)

what being a mother is all about...

2011-03-28T09:24:00.000+08:00

Not having enough sleep.

I’m terribly sleepy right now. My head is really heavy and I kept yawning like every 10 minutes.

Last night, Hailey couldn’t sleep- not just only couldn’t, she screams! But I pity her because she seemed to have colic. And, to make things not better, I couldn’t give her breast milk due to a hormonal pill I took a day before. At least, sometimes, when she was uncomfortable, when I breastfed her, it’ll sooth her a bit. So, last night was quite miserable!

Both of us ended sleeping at 3.30 am. *yawns*

P&P to my sweet doters :)

2011-03-25T15:22:00.001+08:00

Dear my daughters…

I am not yet sure whether you will turn out like your mother- a hopeless romantic ;). As you might remember when you were kids (currently: aqish 4, busyra 2, hailey- u wouldn’t remember…) mama spends lots of her time with a book in her hands.. one book in particular really caught mama’s attention. Ask abah why so… J. Oklah, just ask me (if you don’t mind the long winded version…)

Anyway, the book is called Pride & Prejudice. I really hope you girls love it. Read the original classic when you’re older. Nevertheless, here’s a summary for you to understand why mama loved it so much.. (from http://www.myprideandprejudice.com)

Mr. and Mrs. Bennet live with their five daughters in Meryton. Meryton is a small town in England. The family have servants and land, but they are not really rich. The Bennet’s house is called Longbourn. When Mr. Bennet dies, Longbourn will be given to a distant family member. Mrs. Bennet wants her daughters to marry wealthy men soon. If they do not, they could become poor, or even homeless.

Mrs. Bennet is excited because a rich, young, single man has moved into the area. He is called Mr. Bingley. He has come with his even richer friend, Mr. Darcy. He has also brought his sisters, Caroline Bingley and Mrs Hurst. Mrs Hurst’s husband is there too

At a town party, Mr Bingley meets Jane Bennet. Jane is very beautiful. She is the oldest of the Bennet sisters. Mr. Bingley is kind and friendly to strangers. Jane and Mr. Bingley get on very well and dance together. Mr. Darcy is very different. He is not friendly, and he refuses to dance with Elizabeth Bennet. Elizabeth is the second-oldest Bennet sister. She is the most important person in the story.

Jane visits Mr. Bingley’s house, which is called Netherfield. On her way, it rains and Jane becomes very sick. She stays at Netherfield until she is better. Elizabeth visits her sister at Netherfield. Mr. Darcy is there too. Mr. Darcy starts to like Elizabeth. Elizabeth is very smart and good with words. She always stands up for herself. Mr. Bingley’s sister, Caroline, wants to marry Mr. Darcy, so she does not like Elizabeth very much.

Mr. Bennet gets a letter from a man called Mr. Collins. Later, Mr. Collins visits them. He is a very strange, stupid man. Mr. Collins will be given the Bennets’ house when Mr. Bennet dies. Mr. Collins always talks about Lady Catherine de Bourgh. Lady Catherine is a rich woman who has given a lot to Mr. Collins.

A group of soldiers comes to Meryton. One of the soldiers is called Mr. Wickham. Mr. Wickham is handsome and seems friendly. Mr. Wickham tells Elizabeth that Mr. Darcy is a very bad man. He says that Darcy did not give him any money, even though Darcy’s father wanted him to. Elizabeth feels sorry for Mr. Wickham. She doesn’t like Mr. Darcy.

Elizabeth hopes that Mr. Wickham will be at a party. She is sad that he is not there. Elizabeth and Mr. Darcy talk for a short time. Elizabeth’s family behave very badly at the party. Elizabeth is embarrassed.

Mr. Collins asks Elizabeth to marry him. She says no. Three days later, Mr. Collins asks another lady, Charlotte Lucas, to marry him instead. Charlotte is a close friend of Elizabeth. Charlotte says yes to Mr. Collins. Elizabeth is surprised.

Mr. Bingley and his family and friends leave Netherfield. They go to London. Jane Bennet is very upset because she loves Mr. Bingley. She thinks Mr. Bingley doesn’t love her. Elizabeth thinks Caroline Bingley is trying to keep Mr. Bingley and Jane apart.

Elizabeth goes to stay with Charlotte and Mr. Collins. Elizabeth also meets Lady Catherine de Bourgh. Lady Catherine is very bossy and quite scary. Mr. Darcy and Elizabeth meet at Lady Catherine’s house. Mr. Darcy’s friend, Colonel Fitzwilliam, tells Elizabeth some news. He tells her that Mr. Darcy tried to keep Jane and Mr. Bingley apart. Elizabeth is angry.

Mr. Darcy asks Elizabeth to marry him. Elizabeth is surprised. Mr. Darcy says he shouldn’t really marry Elizabeth because her family is not rich or important. He says can’t help loving her, so he’s asking her anyway. Elizabeth is angry at Darcy’s words. She also doesn’t like him because of what happened to Mr. Wickham. Also, she is angry because Mr. Darcy separated Jane and Mr. Bingley. Elizabeth says she won’t marry Mr. Darcy.

The next day, Mr. Darcy gives Elizabeth a letter. The letter says that Mr. Wickham was lying. It says that Mr. Wickham took lots of money, but spent it all. It even says that Mr. Wickham tried to run away with Georgiana, Mr. Darcy’s younger sister. Georgiana was only 15. Elizabeth is not sure what to think.

The youngest Bennet sister is called Lydia. She is 15 years old and she thinks about men all the time. Lydia goes to Brighton, another town in England, to follow the soldiers. Elizabeth thinks this is a bad idea. Lydia might do something to shame the family.

Elizabeth visits the north of England with her aunt and uncle. They go to Pemberley. Pemberley is Mr. Darcy’s big, beautiful house in Derbyshire. Mr. Darcy’s housekeeper says that he is a kind man. Darcy and Elizabeth meet in Pemberley. Elizabeth is very embarrassed, but Mr. Darcy is friendly to Elizabeth and her aunt and uncle.

Elizabeth begins to like Darcy more and more. Maybe she loves him. Then, a letter comes from Elizabeth’s sister, Jane. It says that Lydia and Mr. Wickham have run away together. Lydia is only 15. If they do not marry, the family will be shamed. Nobody will want to marry Elizabeth or Jane, or any of the other sisters. Elizabeth is very worried. She goes back to Longbourn.

At Longbourn, Another letter comes. It says that Mr. Wickham will marry Lydia. This is good news. Mr. Bennet thinks that Elizabeth’s uncle must have paid Mr. Wickham. He doesn’t know how to pay him back. Lydia and Mr. Wickham come to Longbourn. Lydia doesn’t care if she upset anyone. By mistake, she says that Mr. Darcy was at the wedding. Elizabeth finds out that Mr. Darcy set up the wedding. Mr. Darcy paid for it too!

Mr. Bingley and Mr. Darcy come back to Netherfield. Mr. Bingley asks Jane to marry him. Jane says yes. Mrs. Bennet doesn’t know that Mr. Darcy set up Lydia’s wedding. She is rude to him. Elizabeth knows the truth, and she is embarrassed.

Lady Catherine de Bourgh comes to Longbourn. She tells Elizabeth that she cannot marry Darcy. Elizabeth does not know what Lady Catherine is talking about. Elizabeth does not promise anything to Lady Catherine.

Darcy hears that Elizabeth did not say she wouldn’t marry Darcy. He asks Elizabeth to marry him. She says yes.

Mr. Bingley and Jane, and Elizabeth and Mr. Darcy get married all together.

Don’t you think that was a lovely story? That’s why mama kept on bugging abah to buy the dvd… ;)

Pride & Prejudice... my second Austen

2011-03-23T13:38:00.000+08:00

“Think only of the past as its remembrance gives you pleasure”

This was always my philosophy, even before reading upon it in P&P.

Babyy.. you're soo gonna be pissed at me..

2011-03-16T16:12:00.001+08:00

My ikan.. he denies himself as a romantic kinda person.. and I quote..”Ma, I’m just not that kind of a guy”

Yet! The songs he chose.. (begged him to download some songs for me to block certain noise at work…)

Don’t Cry by Guns and Roses

Separuh Nafas by Dewa

Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton

Only a pisces wife can see his true colors.. (people, pray tell.. how can I NOT feel romantically inlove with him, with all these songs to entertain me during work?)

**updated after searching lyrics for Don't Cry...

Abah! You... you...!!! this is a BREAKUP SONG!!!!

i am sooooo taking back that whole romantically inlove sh*t.. hahahahhaha

nolah babyyy, i am always heads over heels in love with you (hishhh malunye admit to the world like this)

hooked on austen

2011-03-15T10:12:00.001+08:00

Ok, I may be a bit exaggerating here.. but truth is.. I find myself hooked on anything Austenish.

I just started to read ONE of her novel- Emma.. (boy, this one is thick!.. I probly should have started with Pride & Prejudice..)

But, although its taking me quite sometime reading (and.. in between reading other novels..) I got to say, I am really enjoying myself.

And now, half through her Emma, I’m thinking about to start on Pride & Prejudice. Even though, it’s the story is well known.. and all that.

And, since (insyaAllah…) we’ll getting our unifi this month, I’ll urge ikan (direct hints, baby!) to download all Austen movies. Especially, now on my top priority list would be Emma, starring Paltrow.

I know I’m babbling but I feel soo excited that I just have to let this out. I cant access Goodreads during office hour, so I can only pour my heart out here… L

P.S.: this is my first classic. So, understand my surprise here J

what is sooo darn special on 8th of March??

2011-03-11T10:31:00.001+08:00

Go, go, go, go, go, go
Go, shorty
It's your birthday
We gon' party like it's your birthday

We gon' sip Bacardi (harammm) like it's your birthday
And you know we don't give a f**k (whooops)
cause it's not your birthday! (OFKOS cause IT’S MINE!!!!!!)

So..

Who wouldn’t feel special on their birthday? Thanks to all the gorgeous people for their wishes.. luvly, really!

Thanks a bundle to my beautiful husband for being… well you.

And, what I also loved about 8^th March is that it’s the Intenational Women’s Day.

How cool is that?

You know who else is cool? My sister- Kakak.

Kakak is the sister you always wanted- the one you got to ajak jalan2 and makan2 and do fun stuff (with her money, no less!).. well at least this is true when she was still single.. Pathetic me, I only got to know Sunway ice skating from her! “-_- The Bravado in driving from Seremban to KL (KL! Not UPM…- during matrix) was also her influence. So, in short she’s one fun sister..

I was once being commented by a friend (during those early driving years…) “Wow Syah, ko drive cam kakak ko!” I stongly took that as a compliment J

Then she got married. darn! There goes her free time (ampun, abang firdaus!)

Anyway, she’s still extra ordinaire when she became a- wife@doter inlaw@sister in law@momma.

She really goes to extra length in helping and caring for people… just like my arwah daddy.. hmm.. there’s some ‘wow’ stories backing this but maybe next time I’ll share (yeah, rite?? Like the time I planned to share on America’s Civil war? Heheh).

She loves cooking (I mentioned her passion in cooking before… *applause, applause!)

She doesn’t have this penyakit ‘debar2’.. like some women do.. that got to mean something rite? (she advices a lot of milk)

She doesn’t hold grudges… (well, there’s this one particular person that I am starting not to like- out of loyalty!, but kakak seems to have that ridiculous sense of- always forgiving and ‘kasi la chance dulu kat dia’. I forgive those who repent but ???? really?

Anyway, you got to admire these types of people- the ones with forgiveness with a snap.

Oh, there’s many more! But I’ll bore you.. (like, you think you’re the only one with an older sister??)

Well.. she’s pregnant now.. and I may uhmmm ‘cant-stand-the-annoying-pregnant-sister’ but all in all, she is oner terrific woman. Kakak, happy international woman’s day!

And to all other great women (that means all you female readers!) Happy to you gals too! …..though belated! *wink

alls well

2011-03-01T12:00:00.001+08:00

One person in particular can’t just help but be stupid.

date night

2011-02-22T13:07:00.000+08:00

Huhh… never thought what we’ve missed when we were dating… parents out there! Its about time we go out just the two of us (with the spouse, I mean…) and just spend the night together.

No yelling at kids to behave.

No mess during dinner.

No bribing session.

No walking a mile apart from your partner.

No running.

No ‘No! No!’

It was super fun.. but.. at the end of the nite- ‘Jom balik! Rindu anak lah….’ J

being the wife

2011-01-13T15:27:00.000+08:00

I had a thought yesterday.

I was blog hopping and I landed on CikYah75’s cooking blog. My ikan Loves cooking blogs and this page was one of his favos. (Lawak x..aku dok baca MR book reviews, ikan baca his wife’s cookings. Ikan memang sgt suka anything to do with food J)

As briefly mentioned, she is the wife of theMalaysianReader (MR). I love this couple.. even I don’t know them personally.. but I am such a sucker for good ol romantic and loving couples. And that is how I perceive them. Jgn kacau my mental picture.

Anyway, I envied CikYah because she has that passion and guts to try new recipes etc. and her dishes are soo nice and very presentable.

I wanted to be like that.. just like my sister, kakak too.. such passion when cooking. And all I can come up with is the same o same o dishes. I don’t have the creativity spur when I cook. Its always about feeding and not anything more. Sometimes, yes. I get excited and try new dishes but that is a once in month deal. And definitely not during weekdays.

I know both of us wished to have a more variety set of dishes. So.. there were some ‘steps taken’ to ignite my creativity. Even though cam lawak… salah satu is me listing all possible menu on the fridge. Mak kedah read this one day and tergezut napa byk sgt bende nak masak. Then baru die tau that it was supposed to be an idea list. I wish I knew what she was thinking. Heheh she did say ‘Betoi ka?’ hahah

Macam mana eh nak have that drive?

i miss my baby..

2011-01-11T15:45:00.001+08:00

A little bit of background…

My little family is currently commuting daily from seremban to work. Why? Cause the kids’ nursery has yet to hire a babysitter for Hailey (supposed to be in in February). And so here we are.. ulang alik from seremban.. and.. honestly, it is such a tiring experience! By Friday I was soo exhausted that I cant even think of doing anything during the weekends.. let alone doing ‘em.

Anyway.. yesterday, at precisely 5.29, I got a call from ikan- he has a meeting at 5.30pm that will end at 8.30. I was like..???? my gosh. That is soo late. If we were in serdang, I wouldn’t mind that much but because we had to go back to seremban..

And then, my mom called that we need not go back since its gonna be very late…

Hence… the first time ever I am away overnight from my baby. Uwaaaa! Rindu!!!

Hahah. Tu je.

i'm not pregnant but i'm in a B****y mood!

2011-01-07T10:21:00.001+08:00

Bladi my my foot! Gosh I’m soo terribly angry rite now.

Why do you have to spread your ugly mood to other peope?

You are not helping getting work done, and I thought that was your main objective???

OMG! If I were to suffer this moody person without any buffer I’m gonna be mad. Seriously I am!

I guess this is my cue to be like a tree… :p

because i was bored...

2011-01-06T14:13:00.000+08:00

This picture was taken by ikan- both B1 and B2 were ‘meragam’ because we insisted them not sleeping with us (and B3) on the bed. Kire, this is kinda like warming up the idea of sleeping by themselves in their room… someday.

So, being kakak as usual.. she sulked. Adik followed. Then.. I came down and imitated them. J look at Busyra.. pantang nampak camera, terus intai ;)

What am I up to?

2011-01-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

What am I up to?

Hmm… I don’t know. I guess a lot of things but not sure they’re important enough to put in writing (as tho previous entries do? Heheh.)

Hmm.. kakmah (my lil sister) got engaged last 2 weeks. It was a surprise, nobody planned it. It just happened. During the school holidays. Way to go kakmah!

Anyway, I enjoyed my share in doing the hantaran.. a simple basket concept. Green and pink. Lovely combination of colors.. its my current favourite.. having 3 daughters and all J. Kakmah chose the baskets- very nice and simple (and cheap too.. hehehe)

We finished the hantaran wayyyy back in mid December. But I didn’t take any pictures! Nor did kakmah. Well.. I guess it wasn’t shot worthy pun.. cume nice. My lil bro took some I guess.

So.. what else?

Books.. u want in on them? Well.. I am proudly to announce that I finished 72 books in 2011. Mind you I started in May 2010, when I discovered my ‘interest’ (belum love lagi..) in books. Although my current preferred genre is romance, but I do intend to read others too. i am intrigued to read Picoult’s books. Read ‘House Rules’ is quite nice. Tapi, for now, I still have few romance books on the shelf that I haven’t finished yet. J sukeeee!

The kids- I want them to love books earlier (definitely earlier…) than the mother. I remembered I liked reading books.. but not as a hobby. All I can do for them is providing ample reading environments and frequent bookstore visits.. kot?

For start, me and ikan is planning to turn bilik bibik into a library.. (hahah from office abah to bilik bibik to library… hopefully x kene jinx la project x jadi…) billy book shelves are the cheapest (and menarik dipandang mata…) so far. Waahh.. tetibe plak ade reso for 2011! hehehh

And since when I dah jadi tua??

2010-12-29T11:01:00.000+08:00

Ok. Here’s the late announcement- of the ketibaan of my 3^rd princess.

Its not that I didn’t want to announce but I thought of announcing with a picture kan? Heheh.

So kenkawan, here’s Baiduri Hailey Bt Ahmad Zaidi, 3.56kg elective ceasar at Hospital Serdang.

I have a lot to comment on my Hailey but my mind is not at the flowery state rite now.

Why?

I feel old.

Honestly, I don’t ‘feel’ I’m old.. its just that there’s this colleague of mine calling me- kak Aisyah. This is not the first time anyone called me ‘kak’ but I feel I’m terribly ‘tue’ when this Chinese colleague of mine calls me this. Oklah, truth be told, I am old- I guess. Being 30 and da 3 orang anak. Gosh.. 3 kids! How did that happened?

Baru je semalam rasanya.. I was out from Uni. Baru je semalam kawen. And now, I have 3 adorable girls with me and ikan. Lovely.. but not so young.. hmmm

Twitt! I still feel young at heart… I think.

What are the differences between young & old anyway? I am more ter’arah’ I guess.. as compared in 2003. serious? Hmm a little. Wise? Hahahah heck no! responsible? Was I reckless last time? Don’t think so…

I love life- don’t get me wrong. I just don’t like thinking I’m old. My husband doesn’t look old, does he? Do I look old? Hmm maybe. (terime je lah kenyataan, Aisyah!!)

Hehehe J

hiatus indeed~

2010-10-18T11:07:00.001+08:00

So people, friends..

I don’t know exactly what to tell you on my hiatus. Definitely been very busy, with the raya, office (Kenanga planning to move to PJ end of this year… hence for my early packing etc… and my handover etc etc…)..couldnt make a signle day in sept for the impending hi5 reunion…

Oh.. for that, aku nak minta maaf sebanyak mungkin kat those yg attend and bagi commitment. Because of my stupid calculation, I think I did a BIG mess out of it.

But, I sincerely doa that you guys have the funnest times gathering and playing games!

For this near future, I wud also be happy if you can doa for me as well- I’m having my 3^rd caesarian this Friday, to welcome my (rase2nye lah…) 3^rd princess. Oops.. doa for my future daughter too ok?

Salam.

about busyra..

2010-09-03T14:53:00.000+08:00

This is soo not the good mommy entry.. and definitely, busyra will hate me if she stumbles upon this when she’s older.

But the thing is, mommy is a little sleepy in the office right now and mommy needs to occupy time by thinking and doing something interesting J

So, what about Busyra nowadays? Active.. and hmm a little (ye ke??) hardheaded. Everyone knows how ‘active’ she is. She picks up everything and puts it in her mouth, and at the same time giving her cheeky eyes- telling she knows that what she’s doing will make mommy and daddy squirm!

She has the gall to bully her sister.. oklah, aqish is not so much of a fighter.. busyra actually have no fear in fighting or provoking her other older cousins.. boys or girls. That’s the youngest cucu peridah md zain for you.

She climbs at the handles in the car…

She hangs on the rails of the swings in seremban… with no one supporting her landing..-_-”

She’s like a treasure hunter, finding the oddest things around the house…

Anyway, she does have her cuteness one way or another. Especially when she adores carrying her laundry to the laundry basket.. even took her sister’s laundry- cause aqish doesn’t bother to. Same goes to getting and putting their milk bottles in the sink.. when she makes her cute face and voice when she knows she’s in trouble..

Hmm.. this entry is simply an run through entry to help me from shutting my eyes in the office. ;)

being pregnant...

2010-08-23T11:03:00.001+08:00

I am now in my 3^rd trimester. The oh-so-wonderful life is slowly fading away. not that I’m being ungrateful and unhappy about the baby, but when the time is near, so does the uncomfortable state I am in now beginning to surface.

Why I don’t like 3^rd trimesters:-

The baby is waayyyy active. Not just moving, moving. She’s jumping, kicking ass, and don’t know what else she is fighting in there. Its bearable of course but dang annoying.

Fatigue is driving me up the wall! There’s tons of things I want and need to do in my head- but my movements are becoming slower and slower, and so does my will power- when the lenguh kicks in. when that happens, all I can do is sit or lie down, which I hate if I have so many things to do!!

I’m becoming heavier, of course.. last checkup I was 55.4kg. and this leads to me walking dang slow. And dang tired climbing stairs at the monorail and star.

I haven’t taken my neurogain for the baby yet. Pity her. I should get rite on it!

And since the time is near, I am so not ready! I have to set an appointment with Hosp Serdang for my elective surgery.. I haven’t bought a thing for the baby’s arrival. And, when visiting Kak’s newborn, I felt a pang of fear. Wtf? I’m having my 3^rd and I’m scared? Huhuhu~~ I am scared. A lot of things in my mind… even death- to that extent!

Well.. guess you’ve all know by now how tense I’ve become now. I’m still happy for my sunshine no.3 but dang… im stressing out!

i hate tetanus (betul x eja nih??) shots!

2010-08-18T12:27:00.000+08:00

Aku kene jab semalam- to my surprise.. dah tiba masa die ke? I wasn’t being warned at all! Tetibe dr raja kata aku kene inject ari ni..(semlm). Sh*t sakit ok!

And until now my shoulder felt like someone had punched me badly.

Ok. Tu je hahahahahhahaha

sekadar update

2010-08-05T11:58:00.001+08:00

Heh. A lot happening since my last update tapi xdak idea and masa nak tulis.

Ikan da balik yeay!

Pose ganti cam x sempat nak abiskan…

Baju raya x dapat nak tempah.. beli siap je la nampak gayanye…

Byk gile buku da abis baca sampai x dapat nak buat rumusan kat sini (like u guys like to read them…) I usually comment kat GR la nih.

Projek ramadhan- cam biasa kunon nak khatam 1 quran.. additionally ingat nak baca tafsir from start to finish..

Reunion da lama terkubur dr kepala nih.. sian harizah, tgh pantang, die plak yg havoc. I blame only myself for this. SORRY kenkawan esp HARIZAH.

Pregnancy and all of its ups and downs.. hahaha x dapek nak summarize. Letak tajuk je ;)

I’m still loving life as it is~ sure, ade bumps and all. But as of today and few days back.. what a beautiful life!

feeling better, i guess. (skip lagi, not important)

2010-07-22T12:43:00.001+08:00

So.. I am still wondering why but at least what I did and had yesterday made up a bit of my day.

Ikan is gone tho. Sangat jarang both of us being separated like this for a long time. Selamba je nengok nannoor dok bintulu sebulan. OMG! I cant. Don’t think so..

Anyway, balik from keje yesterday ikan said some nice things. (1)

Balik, we singgah kat kedai segi jap beli sayur- I went wild~ ikan usually does the grocery shopping. Tapi yesterday since I wanted to cook for him, I went in. I came out with lots of vegs which come to think of, sapa lah nak makan… tinggal aku je yg makan sayur.. hmm.. (2)

Then, after maghrib, I cooked him dinner, even balik kire lambat yesterday.. I managed to cook 6 dishes everyone! Huuhuhu… selalu 3 at most. I’m so proud of myself. Terasa ade skil mak seremban plak. Heheh masak laju. (ok, x laju mana pun… we end up dining at 10!) heheheh (3)

Our lauk?

1- Labu gulai lemak

2- Udang masak tomato

3- Ayam goreng kicap fusion Aisyah

4- Terung goreng berlada

5- Sawi goreng

6- Ikan tenggiri goreng (for the kids)

Then, siap kemas2 dapur and basuh + ampai baju. Setel! (4)

Oklah. Terasa productive memang motivating.

Kalau we had some ‘loving’ last nite, mesti last nite jadi the best nite ever. Hahahahah. Ish ish ish ;)

And then, this morning, I woke up at 4.30 am to sahur. (…5)

Nice~

nothing super. u may skip from reading.

2010-07-21T09:28:00.001+08:00

Where’s my super duper? I lost it suddenly. I’m feeling blue. I myself am not sure of the cause…

Was it because ikan’s going away?

Was it last nite?

Is it my pregnancy?

Not enough sleep?

Friends?

Money?

My previous dream?

Books I read lately?

Work?

Owhhh.. sounds so awful! Im attracting negative vibes and I sure don’t like it. I don’t even like myself today. I don’t feel wonderful. Even in prayers I feel this sorrow.

Ya Allah! What has come over me? I know You take care of me. Please give me happiness. Amin.

I have an idea why actually.. but too afraid to admit it. It was being talked over- over and over again. I thot I took it well, never to repeat this feeling/ doubt. But why does it comes to me in the most inconvenient time?

kasih x terungkap... as expected

2010-07-19T12:03:00.001+08:00

I finished the malay book last Friday and what can I say.. as expected.

1- Jalan cerita memang suam and over the top. I don’t know… whether its only me or does this really happen, or possibility of happening? Kawen senyap2 from the rest of the world especially from the guy’s parents. Hello??? Mentua laki la yg patut minta diredhai dulu, kan? Anyway.. moving on.. kawen time study kat overseas, the heroine pregnant and lived all alone… and ade another guy (who loved her dearly) ‘tolong’ jaga her and the baby…..??? really? That saint? I don’t buy it. Lagi pun, cam x aci 1 girl but managed to steal many good male hearts, even when she is already married? C’mon! da kawen da la.. you cant rely on other guy’s affection blab la bla…

2- Heroine (Khairina)- lembik gile minah ni. You take a risk, live it on ur own.. cam budak yg x fakir panjang.. no wonder all disaster comes falling on your lap. X leh terima.

3- Hero (Ikhwan)- lagi aku x leh terima. Wtf? Kawen rahsia2 pastu tinggalkan bini (yg u shud already suspected she’s pregnant..) and even konon missed her sooo demn much, only managed to call her once in a while?? What are you? Demented? Ingat die gefren ko? Ishhh.. and, the character- the author didn’t make him seem to dependant upon. Sekadar menyelamatkan his family by marrying an heiress… ko x leh cari keje yg better ke? Actually, towards the end pun, as tho he is living on the riches of his 2^nd wife. Definitely not the kind of guy I wud dream of. At least cari kerjaya sendiri la wei.

4- HEA? Not so much. Boy, there’s a lot of things I don’t get in this story.. even some wud say the villain (Zurin) got what she deserved for.. but I don’t buy any of it. There’s so many wrong things going on in this book that I don’t find the happy ending to that happy. Zurin pergi hospital sakit jiwa. Seriously? That’s it? No remorse, no confession no nothing?

Arghhhhh what a week! Sib baik along the week I read ‘And then he kissed her.’ Steamy stuff this one. But a funny and entertaining one that is! And I always love female with knowledge. Loved their conversation.. and really loved their confession- esp when he realized he’s already in love with her. Very light yet strongly entertaining. Sapa nak baca, let me know. I have the softcopy.

The rest of my week- da dapat the recipes I wanted. nak cari time nak buat jek. Bought RW and O&A but will start reading this weekend. Starting ‘The Bride’ by Julie Garwood plak.

Ooooo.. I’m missing ikan already! (and he is only going not until this Thursday!)

projects for my July~

2010-07-12T09:42:00.000+08:00

So.. I have this plan.. sort of. Tang where to find the time to do it lain kira.. although I plan to at least accomplish them by end the month…

Plan 1- (jangan gelak!) Apam gula hangus

Last week or was it last 2 weeks.. nevermind… I bought this apam gula hangus from Kak Intan- the same nasi goreng/ nasi lemak Kak Intan, and rather than my usual additional of kuih kasui and cucuq badak, I took this apam gula hangus. I don’t know why… but I was never attracted to this kuih before (ok, ikan will say that I never try anything that is out from my ordinary yeah yeah..what ever darling!). but I guess I was in my ‘trying’ mood and took it. Waahh. I liked it! Heheh gediknye!

Anyway, I plan to search for the simplest yet yummiest recipe of the thing within this week, and hopefully make ‘em before ikan goes off next week. Chewahhhh berangan! Hope its easy to make.

Plan 2- Sosej balut roti

Cam teringin nak kasi this sort of makanan untuk bekal aqish. FYI, aqish’s food is very simple. Eg- sossej KOSONG, nasi putih/ nasi lemak KOSONG, ayam goreng SAJA, nugget etc.

So, I would like to make it a bit more fun by preparing her sausage rolls ke.. and also, I used to like it.. might like it again, kalau home made… hmm..

Ikan is with me on this. He’s very terre in terms of bakings and breads etc.

Plan 3- Books: Another 2 of my last JM- Remember When & Once and Always

Since ikan is going outstation for the whole next week, I think I’ll read them next week lah. Occupying my lonely nights ahahahahahahah gedik lagi!

I’ll buy them tomorrow. There. Settle part 1.

Plan 4- Books: Baca buku-novel melayu

I must say.. this gives me the goosebumps. I am not trying to be berlagak atau poyo dgn not wanting to read malay books, cume kurang exposure and pengaruh kot.

Well, I took a gamble last Friday (book fair by Utusan Publishing rasanya…) at Hg Tuah monorail lagi.. and bought ‘Kasih tak terungkap’. I hope it does not disappoint me.

I’ve read malay novels during kat SMAP dulu, kire satu zaman kitorng baca JM and Sidney Sheldon dulu aa… some are great, some (and most of them) disappointing. Few things that bug me were:

Jalan cerita suam2..
Not so much of a HEA ending. Selalu ade je melibatkan orang baik yang mati.
Toooo poetic. Kekadang I cant grasp the story sebab ayat bunga2 giler.. some of the words I don’t understand. In English, you can google.. kalau malay.. eh.. leh ke?
Some principles of the characters tu goes against my own. Kalau mat Salleh, I don’t mind sgt sbb its their culture. Lantaklah. Contohnye, kalau la the hero and heroine beriye ikutkan cinta, belakangkan their parents.. automatically I have a negative perception towards the malay characters. No matter how in love they are. I know, I know.. these are fictions.. but still…

Well, enough of that. I haven’t had a lot of exposure yet and I’m thinking about all this.

Anyway, the book is 702 pages. Hope to finish it by this week. X leh spill to next week! Hehehe got other plans, as mentioned ;)

Ok. Cukup 4 projects for the rest of my July. Wish me luck!

books, i'm beginning to love them!

2010-07-09T15:10:00.001+08:00

Since me having such fun reading nowadays, I got myself joining this goodreads.com to basically know what books are good to read, and to read book reviews. Its such a nice place to pacify my ‘sayangnya- nak- lepaskan-buku-ni’ feeling.

After like a month I guess, I searched for any Malaysian groups- which I did and baru je start to follow..

i viewed the member’s profile, just for curiosity and learning what type of books they read.. there’s this girl, she read 1300+ books already. Gile aa. KAGUM!

There’s this guy pulak, he reads a lot too.. and he writes his reviews- excellently! Loved it! Terpengaruh nak baca the books he reviewed. He stated that he doesn’t read romance (what else is new?- for every guy, kan?).. honestly, I don’t see myself only reading romance novels, even tho my books I read are nearly all romances. You give me a nice book, I will sure to read it.

Well, anyway, I think I’d like to follow his blog http://themalaysianreader.com/ - and especially his reviews. English die best. And funny. Cume, I’m not into the buying online books yet unlike these people.. (well, except for the secret…) Maybe because I haven’t tried it yet?

I now have a tinie winie understanding of the feeling those GR members that are addicted to buying books. Aku rase I have to have some sort of super power je x nak gi MPH kat crown plaza tu (because I haven’t bought Remember When and Once & Always yet..) tu belum lagi addicted to other authors lagi tu.

Don’t we live in a nice world? The world is beautiful!

perutku lagi~

2010-07-05T14:39:00.001+08:00

So, I couldn’t wait until next Tuesday for my monthly visit with my gynae- Dr Raja Ju*aidah.

[can I selit one thing here… its about the history of Dr Raja. She’s a gynae in Columbia asia and only she has night clinics (O&G of course). I decided to not to go to Dr Intan in Seremban- sebab is far and she’s too busy for any drop in patients, if I had to. Anyway, during the search of a suitable gynae for me- night/ weekend clinics & pompuan islam, let’s just say that we (me and ikan) had a BIG fight over this. At the time when he suggested Dr Raja, he made me believe- dgn sungguh confident sekali! That this Dr Raja is some Indian Male gynae. That kunonnye this is my only choice for a night clinic gynae. Male, Indian some more.. “Yang ada Dr Raja (penuh baku sebutan suamiku ini). Laki india.. tu je ada” and I was offended that he would suggest such to me knowing that I want a FEMALE muslim for someone to look at my vajayjay. Gishh darling! We fought like hell..

Then, I went to Columbia myself during the day (mc le kirenye ni).. when I was having my week long of bleeding. I asked the receptionist to refer me to a female O&G. Malas nak sebut islam, nanti takut ade kata aku racist plak hehhe.. anyway, mamat kat counter tu pun gave me- “is Dr Raja Ju*aidah ok with you maam?”. I think I smiled. Cause, I don’t think there’s a possibility that this Dr Raja and Dr Raja (ikan’s version) are 2 different persons…

Penat je gaduh. If only my dearest ikan further asked the receptionist Dr Raja’s full name… for the record, ikan insisted that the fault be the receptionist he spoke over the phone, for not giving him the doctor’s full name and for pronouncing it with baku- Raja.

So, that’s how Dr Raja became my gynae this pregnancy… J still gives me a smile…]

Okay, back to my original story- I told her that im having the C for 1 week now and its bugging the hell out of me. I gave her the folax which the GP gave me and she, frowned and to my satisfaction, she too kutuk the GP saying that I shouldn’t go to an inexperience GP. Hehehe suke!.

Anyway, she gave me 2 kinds of meds- one to solve my current problem and the other for avoiding re-occurrence. Balik umah- walaaaahhhh suke. But the act of inserting something through ur anal is not anything pleasant at all! Nangis aku! (cant imagine those who you know what se*ually…)

Im just saying- im all relieved now J J J

And then, Dr kate lagi, that I don’t have to bother what I eat affecting the baby.. not until I am 30 weeks I should be monitoring and controlling as by then the baby will absorb whatever I eat. Wuhuuuuuu! I can indulge myself with chocolate cakes and chocs and sweets. Ok lah, just have to watch out for my own body becoming bigger but at least I can be aware kan?

Today’s plan is to bake a choc moist cake later. (ps. Aqish siap tanye whose birthday was it that I am fussying over to buy the ingredients for the cake)

(just as long my constipation comes back!) I’m gonna have so much funnnn J

updates- books & baby-inside-me

2010-07-01T11:56:00.001+08:00

Books

I’ve finished this very funny sci-fi romance book recently. The book was loaned from Johanna, after I told her that I love Kingdom of Dreams sebab it was hilariously romantic. So, she gave me ‘Warrior’s Woman’ by Johanna Lindsey. Like always- this is an old book…

It was hard at first to read the book sebab at first (taking a quote from before…) I have difficulty visioning characters that are not in this era, let alone another planet.. hahahah but fortunately it wasn’t anything extra ordinaire like Avatar- the characters. They were human. The heroine a futuristic warrior and the hero a powerful and strong barbarian warrior… (and.. wealthy of course!) basically they found, fight and fell in love with each other. But the differences between the 2 worlds are definitely kelakar! Although, I don’t think this is suitable for unmarried (and young) ladies to read it as I personally would label the book as a bit of lucah. Kire macam Scary Movie. Funny as hell, but censored in a whole. However, its not empty lucah. There is a story line behind it and I like it. No big conflict to play around with your emotions but… hmm… I better not say. What I can say is that.. the mild hatred is understandable and felt.

I don’t think I’ll be reading a lot of those any time soon. I think.

I love the female characters here, especially Martha- the free thinker computer. Kire, computer yg ade fikiran sendiri. The heroine- Tedra, I like her sebab she is untouched and knowledgeable. Not 100% submissive, but will submit with a reason and principle. The hero- I don’t seem to love him sebab afterall, he IS a barbarian- sort of. Johanna Lindsey didn’t try to make him look intelligent.. just ~~plain~~ very handsome and strong. Towards the end, when he poured his love to Tedra (when he thought Tedra was dying…) Nampak la ok sket. Menganggu I sket la bile the hero seemed less intelligent than the heroine. Yeah, call me conservative, lame whatever. But I personally feel that man with much more knowledge than his woman is sexy. (hik hik… I memang depend on ikan for most of my extra knowledge seeking- world affairs, politics, entertainment, medicines, food, agama.. sometimes, even my line of work. hehehe- what can I say. I see my ikan very sexy. Hehehe) btw, I think most of my friends (and you guys too…) feel the same way too. Kan?

Ooo.. btw, I once told ikan that women loves being dominated by men, don’t we not? I have a friend where long time ago, she parted with her then boyfriend because he was too of a yes-man. She end up marrying a guy, nampak cam garang tapi tampak loving and he really suit her. And all along, I thought that most woman prefer a guy that will do her bidding and stuff. Hehehe. Well, kalau ada pun pompuan cam tu, me and most of those I know does not fall in that category.

Baby-inside-me

What can I say? Or do for that matter. Im still having my C. and hating every minute of it, especially after a meal. A meal that I must and want to take tapi cant enjoy it much sebab perut and bonts x sedap.

I met with a GP and she sucked like hell. Nak jumpe gynae, I have to wait until next Tuesday for my monthly check up sbb Tuesday je die ade clinic malam. Gishh… (and, napa aku x gi last Tuesday? Because her schedule was full lah! That’s why…). But in the meantime, I’m indulging myself with masam orange juice, strawberries.. pisang x jalan. Prunes and figs aku x makan. I need something realy bad! Just to let the current ones released. Waduuhhhhh sungguh la x comfortable!

As for the baby, waaahhhh at 5 months, she is really active. Which I am very ever grateful. She’s about 10 inch now, from what I read… belum beli apa2 lagi for her. Since x 100% confirm lagi whether her or him. But for what’s it worth (sebenarnye x nak kasi harapan…) I’ll keep on calling her.. (surprisingly, if it’s a girl, da ada nama.. kalau boy, x kompem lagi.. heheh finalized je). Anyway… she is very active at night especially. But she’s silent like an adorable sporting child when im with ikan. She kicks when her sister- aqish wishes to feel her move.. how lovely. Macam aqish bakal gang up with the baby je.. lawan busyra. Hahahahah.

Best la pregnant. In these times of course… masa morning sickness and the 3^rd trimester tu, I don’t think a lot of woman feels this. Kak long and me are few of them. Kak long is in her 1^st trimester, which means all the complaints, morning sickness yg dragged to malam sickness, moody, annoyance, sleepy and fatigue giler.. heheheh. I remembered I uttered some ungrateful and selfish words last trimester. I hope Allah x take me seriously. I LOVE BEING PREGNANT.

To all preggies out there. What a wonderful world we live in ain’t it?

pregnancy

2010-06-28T10:06:00.001+08:00

No wonder I’m fat- even at 5 months only!

Even tho this is quite the routine before I was pregnant.. but still kan?

Every morning (almost la…) I eat nasi lemak, (unless kak intan jual nasi goring then I’ll have nasi goring for breakfast)..

Then, after the nasi lemak and no serious meeting or any other exciting task to do…I start to mengantuk.

After unsuccessfully membuka mata (before pregnancy, the mengantuk wasn’t this bad…) and no where to lelapkan kejap… I go downstairs for a coco loco- GJ, with cream of course! And lots of chocs (kata loco…).

Malam tadi, I had 2 pinggan nasi panas with pekasam (a nice pekasam does this to me- I can actually tambah for the 3^rd time tapi takut nanti I woke up not recognizing myself).

And, since chocolates sentiasa ade kat fridge (for bribing the kids actually…)… whenever I have a craving for something sweet, I dig inside the choc container.

Arghhhh. I have to stop this. Kang, penat je x makan obimin (camne ntah eja…). Anak tetap besau because of my diet. Hish! Aisyah stop rite now!

I think I shud stock up fruits in stead in the fridge kan? Apple ke, pear ke,.. (ohhh boring nye options!)

pregnancy update

2010-06-25T11:56:00.001+08:00

I’m having constipation. Argh. Menci.

Although, I noticed that I don’t eat as much as when I was 5 month pregnant with Busyra, or did I, abah? I hope I don’t gain weight that much.

But I do need what ever I eat to leave my body. Aduhh sakit bonts aku nih. Ulang alik ke mr T but nothing satisfying pun!

PS. What a ugly post~~ theee heee heee

WTF

2010-06-23T16:09:00.001+08:00

Aku adalah antara org yg maleh nak dgr sangat propaganda2 in the internet. To me, internet is used to share and spread knowledge. Opening up the world for everyone. Definitely, ramai yg abuse the service.

I am a muslim but I dare say that I do not believe in such big fuss over coca cola to be la Muhammad and la mekah. Yes, the drink is not healthy for mankind but to that extend?

I just received an email from a co-worker on CROCS. Wtf? Me and her- we have no grudge against another. (I don’t usually have any grudge with my officemates cause I just don’t care enough about them..) anyway, she definitely know that I wear crocs to work. I walk a lot. There. Then this email came and its about the lambang to be lambang Allah. Supposedly muslims are wearing them on the tapak of the shoe, as tho memijak Allah? You gotta be kidding me? That too? Some jewish/ Christian way to disgrace islam?

I am definitely not that of a secular nor I am a pious muslim. But I am a muslim, loving my god, Allah. I do not wear crocs and damned now as tho I am memijak Allah.

I just don’t get it why some just get tooo far when it comes to this sort of stuff. You don’t know for real. If it is true then I don’t think Allah marah kat kita but to those intentionally disgracing Him. But, to doubt every single thing what the west created and to turn it into a religious war.. that aint right.

Why do we have to spread hate?

Neither a lofty degree of intelligence nor imagination nor both together go to the making of genius. Love, love, love, that is the soul of genius.-MOZART-

books again.. and the reason i lost my husband :(

2010-06-23T12:49:00.001+08:00

Hahaha… ikan is now unofficially not a fan of this blog anymore.. reason being? Because I always talk about books. (babe, you should notice by now that you are more than involved with me when it comes to these not-your-kinda-interest books…) Kata2 nak pujuk sang suami- you have to know that when I write those reviews, I always have you in my mind, as I’ve you in my mind when I read them. I KNOW FOR A FACT YOU ARE NOT LIKE IAN- marah x tentu pasal when the problem was his fault in the first place! But, when the heroes are being kind, I always smile because my ikan is kind. X romantic but very kind. ;)

These books… although yes, generally men hates romance books, but I guess it doesn’t hurt for you guys to read them and if you are up for it, discover what makes a your ladies kepang. I do believe that you guys would love it too when suddenly your wife acts as though she was like when you first flirt and that initial months after marriage tu.. kan? Ke aku je?Just keep in mind that, don’t go belittling the over exaggerated heroes –but focus on how deeply these heroes love the heroine that makes us ladies love them. J hahaha kalau ikan berjaya membaca hatta 1 bijik buku JM, maka aku adalah pompuan paling hebat di dunia! hahah

Moving along..

Anyway, my current book is also historical heheh but not romance nor it is fiction. Its called ‘Medal of Honor Heroes’. Basically they’re true short stories of recipient of the Medal of Honors of the US army/ marine you get the idea- during WW1 and US civil war times. During the day, I will be reading it, at night, it’ll be ikan’s turn. So I guess… I’ll be getting my husband back here soon?

I’ll may be write a bit on US civil war later.. maybe.

JM- Something Wonderful

2010-06-21T12:22:00.000+08:00

My latest JM book finished- Something Wonderful.

I actually don’t like the hero that much, but not hating him like Ian Thornton in Almost Heaven. However, I understand why he’s an S in the first place. But I didn’t feel excited reading this book. To me, it’s kinda lukewarm romantic story. I guess this is how other JM readers felt about Night Whispers, after having experienced all of her other books. I do however liked the reconciliation part but thought the ending could be elaborated further. The Epilogue sucks, compared to WML’s epilogue.. this is definitely a 1 out of 10. Tapi, overall cerita is ok. Oohh.. I did cry though.. bile Jordan realized Alex’s life was terrible, masa she was in coma, and when he gave the heart shaped lockets. Baguih. Romantic. If it wasn’t for Almost Heaven and the fact that I know she’ll lived, I wasn’t that sad (as compared to kalau I didn’t know- even may have suspected due to the HEA ending for ALL JM books…) when Alex was shot in the head. Satu lagi.. rase nak tampar je para investigators yg diupah oleh hero2 AH and SW. x serupa investigator langsung yg kunonnye diupah extravagantly. Pastu, dah tau buat keje teruk, x pulak derang kene apa2 kan? Reprimand ke, suh die minta maaf kat mangsa ke.. cam contemporary books she wrote, the FBI involved akan rase ashamed and explained their mistake. At least sedar la yang die screwed up.

There. Maleh nak komen pasal my last 2 books from JM- Once and Always & Remember When. Bile ntah nak beli.

JM lagi. and cuti sekolah bebudak nih.

2010-06-18T11:54:00.000+08:00

So… I bought another 2 JM.. Something Wonderful and Almost Heaven last week. So much for ‘I want to stay away from bookstore—and I’m only going to continue my phase 2 next month… konnonn!’

Anyway, review for those books (to be fair as I did with the phase 1 JMs…) :p,

1- Double Standard

Like I told you, I read this book because Judith said that it was based on a true story of her father. Ade sorang minah yg hampeh dalam the book (how hampeh? She-a wealthy girl abandoned her own son (of with an average guy) and later buat dek, some more made him as he was her enemy when she remarried a wealthy guy even though the boy is soo cute and tried to ‘bribe’ her into coming back for him buy buying her an expensive gift (from his allowances- when he was 5!). In stead of even showing gratitude, she shoved the gift away to her maid. The boy had grown up never to ever buy a present to single female ever. That boy, was Judith McNaught’s father. Sedih gile! The story was actually about a love affair of the boy (now a guy definitely- a very handsome and successful one that is, naturally…). The story- It was too over the top to me tapi hell, loved the book! A bit of humor especially when Nicky made him absent from a supposedly very important international trade meeting because of Lauren. Twice! That was funny. And lovely ending, like always.

2- Kingdom of Dreams

A VERY FUNNY ROMANCE story! Nasib baik the book is thin so, I hadn’t had to sleep at 4am for this book… but it was such a nice love story. Honestly, as for now, Royce is my bestest male character ever. Baik and loving giler. Not to mentioned loyal and forgiving. Hehehe.. I read this book don’t know how many times after finishing it the first time. Sangat light and entertaining. Definitely my most favorite historical- medieval novel. I don’t think I’ll be bored of this one. I love the humor but there’s sadness and patriotism too, all of them shook my emotions. Not to the terrible extent like WML and Perfect but almost to that level, which I prefer actually.

3- Almost Heaven

What a sad story. Aku tak tahan ngan kehidupan minah heroine nih. I am definitely not as strong as her. I cant even imagine I am slightly to have her kind of spirit, courage, and forgiveness. And I hate the male character- Ian Thornton. Aku rase I see me more as Alex in this book- mind you I haven’t read Something Wonderful yet. The tragedies- gile aa! Menyampah ade la aku ngan cerita buku nih because of turbulence of emotions it granted me, even if a good ending. Ok lah, ok lah! I liked the book- proof is because that I just finished it on Wednesday and I already had re-read it twice! Hehehe only part yg best je. Yg happy2 je. Yg bab marah2 and ‘bodohnye-bodohnye Ian!’ I skipped. I really don’t like Ian Thornton. However, I did read and read the reconciliation part over and over again.. hahah just to wet my eyes! Tapi even so, rase nak lempang je si Ian tu. Bladi ignorant and kunon macho aa. Pastu cam perasan2 ayam. Pheh! Hehehe over excited plak! :P. not until the last reconciliation tu I finally inclined to forgive him, but not entirely 100%. Tahan climax kunon nak minta maaf. Piidaaaahh! Not everything is about sex u know! Hehehe emo lagi :P

Another book to read (kunonnye next month tu…) this weekend is Something Wonderful. Hopefully it’s a light story, even tho I doubt it much. The main characters- Jordan & Alex was mentioned (and played a big part jugakla…) in Almost Heaven. So, I guess you should read SW before AH.

CERITA CUTI SEKOLAH

Kesian my kids that me and ikan didn’t managed to take even as much as 1 day leave for the school holiday. Initial plan was that the kids balik kedah seminggu and balik seremban seminggu. Camne ntah x jadi… lagipun, one weekend, org2 seremban gi Singapore, so we decided we’re gonna hang around at Sunway… lagipun, ade voucher dok kat Sunway Suites. Ok lah. I expected worst, it turned out to be a very delightful stay! Nyeh nyeh..

On Saturday, we went to Sunway Lagoon.. btw, busyra was having fever since Monday actually and ikan hesitated in letting her play in the sun and pool. Busyra, kalau demam sangat panas and merisaukan… (says all parents with high fever kids heheh). Tapi, sampai je kat pool area, Busyra la paling sakan skali kan? Dgn pampers masih di bontotnye itu, di gi terjun je masuk pool dalam! Nasib baik ade floaters kat lengan tu. And then, after we had tired ourself at the other 2 parks- baru la sedar yg si Busyra kecik nih telah sembuh dr her fever! Gish adik! You needed excitement and fresh air rupanye! Hehehe

Aqish seemed to have fun too.. even towards the end die da lemah gemalai dah. By the time nak dinner she was a bit cranky.. and she had Rocky (yg choclate batang2 tu..) for her dinner. Walhal, adik siap makan macam2 lagi. Nasik la, fries la, sotong & mushroom tepung la, abih dish lat manhattan FM, adik makan half of mama’s (corrected: memang beli ut kadik sebenarnye…) classic cinnabon. Hebat x anak mama yg sorang nih? Heheheh tu x kire dah kasi susu kat kedai makan tadi tu. Hahahah busyra busyra! U’re soo kiut.

Sunway Pyramid tu die buat cam playground die plak tu.. sukati je nak jalan sensorang kat depan.

Cume, sian aqish pulak sebab she had picked up some fever that night and the day after. Sib baik kakak nih rajin makan ubat. Cepat je sembuh. J

Nak letak gambar but dalam phone ikan. So.. Nampak gayanya memang x dapat lah nak upload… L

sessi marah.

2010-06-10T11:45:00.001+08:00

I’m soo pissed off ngan org yg moody pastu nak keluarkan kemarahan tu kat org lain. Bladihel gile. U deal with your own hormone man! I’m not ur bladi waif!

HOW TO MAKE YOUR HUSBAND HAPPY, SECRET TO A HAPPY MARRIAGE

2010-06-10T11:06:00.001+08:00

I found this article in the net and thought that it’s worth to share. Even though that it’s based on a mat Salleh marriage and relationship, try to take the gist of it. Make true sense and I like it.

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How to make your husband happy for the rest of your married lives

It would be fairly safe to say that most wives or women about to tie the knot would put making their husbands happy at the top of their life ambitions. Most wives would also claim to know what makes them happy, which begs the questions; Why do 50% of all marriages end in divorce? And why are so many husbands unfaithful? The problem is that it will take 20 years of marriage to really understand what will make your husband happy and him, most of his life, if ever.

You won't find all the answers here, the truth lies within the relationship that is called a marriage and hopefully you already have a good understanding of how your husband ticks. This page is more about getting you to ask the right questions and come up with the correct answers and help you understand more about your relationship.

So what is happiness? Are you happy right now? Is your husband happy? What makes you happy? What makes your husband happy?

We will address these questions later but let's look at the situation right now. We can only talk in generalities because your husband is an individual and all men are not the same. However, it is important to understand that men and women apart from the obvious differences are not so very different. You both have feelings, you are both capable of love, you both want to be loved, you want many of the same things and nowadays most men and women have a number of similar interests.

Little wonder then that the spouses in most successful marriages consider themselves to be best friends as well as lovers.

You are about to get married or maybe you have been married for a while and realise that your marriage is not progressing as you had hoped. Whatever your situation, we need to go back to before your wedding day and the lead up to your marriage. Although we are talking about your husband, much of this will also apply to you.

Your husband has chosen you out of the billions of other women in the world to spend the rest of his life with. As much as he loves you, certain doubts will begin to form in the lead up to the wedding, shortly after or even during the service. This is only natural, it is the most major life changing decision he will have ever made. It is not his love for you that he is questioning; he will be questioning his own capabilities and insecurities.

Despite the rise of feminism and "Women's Lib", men still see themselves as the person responsible for their wives care, safety and protection. Men were always the hunter gatherers and warriors, it is deep in their DNA and psyche and it is likely to take another millennium before this is bred out of them. It would be just as true that women feel safe and secure in their arms of their husbands so things haven't changed that much either from a woman's point of view.

AVOID DEBT PROBLEMS

People might talk about marriage being an equal partnership but your husband, despite what he says or believes he thinks will now have the weight of responsibility on his shoulders. He might not understand his feelings of insecurity, he might not even realise he is having them, but deep down he will believe that his job is to provide for you, put a roof over your head, protect you and one day, possibly have the added responsibility of having children. The pressures will be enormous and he will no doubt be questioning, sublimely or subconsciously, if he is up to the job.

He will most likely have ambitions or dreams to give you a big house, nice car, holidays and the sort of life everybody dreams of. He will be questioning his abilities to provide the type of life he believes you deserve and whilst you would be quite happy living in a caravan in a field so long as you are together, he like most men will look at the lifestyles of other more successful married couples and be asking himself if he is good enough.

You shouldn't try and curb his ambitions, you should share them but also help to manage them by both of you setting timescales and managing your finances. As more arguments between married couples are caused by debt problems than anything else, it is important that your ambitions do not get you into debt. The pleasure of buying something you both want will be far and away outweighed by the grief of the money problems it will cause. We all like to receive gifts but it will be down to you to help manage your joint spending. You cannot offload this responsibility. By being patient and waiting, you will get everything you want without the tears.

YOUR SEX LIFE

Getting married means you will have had your last first kiss. That tentative exciting and exhilarating moment that we have all experienced. Remember kissing your husband for the first time? The first few dates where you were waiting and he was late? The first time you made love? The moments of insecurity. Was it OK? Did you please him? Did you satisfy him? Were you the best? Well, that is exactly what he was thinking.

It was those moments of spontaneity, the insecurities, the early fears and worries that made the whole affair so exciting almost painful at times, but such a sweet pain that it was a strange pleasure. Getting married is sometimes a relief, a release from the anxieties you felt in the early weeks and months of your relationship. You have got your man and now you can relax. NO YOU CANNOT.

Many couples, having tied the knot sit back with a feeling of contentment. They have now got what they really wanted out of life and can now relax and enjoy the rest of their lives together.

Contentment is not the same as happiness. Contentment is not a feeling of euphoria, it is not exciting, it doesn't make you laugh or cry, it is not a sense of heightened pleasure and it doesn't stimulate the senses. Whilst contentment is boredom, it is boring and this is where so many marriages go wrong.

Marriage usually makes sex more accessible. Evening meal, do the washing up, watch a bit of television, then off to bed for a probably prearranged session of love making. For the first few weeks, months, even years, this maybe alright, but most couples will settle in to a routine where sex is simply something they do as a ritual. He will most likely do it because he needs the physical relief, you will most likely comply because you always have.

What happened to sex in the back of the car, the romantic dinners, the spontaneity, the stolen moments, the feeling of apprehension, the quickies in the most unlikely of places, the romantic weekends and the passion?

The back seat of the car has child seats and is covered in crisps, the romantic dinners are now a takeaway pizza and a bottle of red, spontaneity is getting a cup of tea made for you when you didn't expect it, stolen moments are when you sit down for ten minutes to read a magazine, feelings of apprehension are waiting for Eastenders to start, a quickie is dashing down to the supermarket to get some milk, a romantic weekend is watching the Sunday afternoon weepy; and as for the passion, that's him watching the match and you having a bar of chocolate.

Wives will argue, they have the children to look after, a house to run, often a full or part time job and they are tired. Yes they probably are. But aren't these the same women who had full time jobs before they got married, probably had their own flat, went out every weekend and most week nights burning the candle at both ends and made love most of the night before dragging themselves off to work the next day?

Aren't these the same women who always got showered and did their makeup and hair before they went on a date, made sure they wore sexy matching underwear, even went to the trouble of putting on stockings and suspenders because they knew their boyfriends found them sexy? Didn't these same women flirt, tease and do everything they could to turn their men on because it made them feel great to know they were lighting fires of desire?

Now the husband come home from work, his wife hasn't showered all day, hasn't done her makeup or hair, is wearing a house suit with marmite and jam stains down the front and regales her husband that he will have to fix the sink because little Johnny has poured glue down the plughole. Husband if he is lucky gets a kiss on the cheek and a cup of tea.

As for sex. That now falls between "you've got to be joking; after the day I've had." or "God is that all you think of, give it a rest, I'm exhausted." or "OK but make it quick, I need to sleep."

This is not what he signed up to when he got married. He expected you to put on a bit of weight when you had the kids. He knew when you gave up work that he would have to work longer hours to support you all; and he expected his sex drive to diminish as he entered middle age. What he didn't expect was to get sidelined, he thought you enjoyed the sex as much as him and whilst the fast food dinners you now cook because you haven't got the time or inclination to prepare him a proper meal have taken their toll a bit, he thought you would still find him interesting and not lose interest in yourself or him.

This why you see so many adverts on singles sites where women are looking for a new partner that must be honest, because their husband went off with his tail between his legs because he no longer felt loved or desired. Have a look at any dating site and try and find any female looking for a male that doesn't stipulate that he has to be honest. Nigh on impossible.

Which brings me back to my unofficial wedding vows. Not that I am condoning infidelity but most husbands lies and infidelity start some years into a marriage. Whilst his wife lied at the alter when she said:

"I will stand by you no matter what happens throughout the rest of my life. I will love you more each day, come what may, I will support you when you need me, I will love you because of your faults and not despite of them, I will forgive you when you hurt me, I will never knowingly do anything to hurt you, I will consider your every needs, I will face every problem beside you and wherever possible take those problems away and I will ask for nothing in return except your love and to know you are happy, because all I want and need in life is to spend the rest of my life with you."

When I started talking about the secret of a happy marriage I said you have to treat every day as if it were more important than the last. This included your husband. All men have needs both physical and emotional and it is essential that you meet those needs in order to keep him happy.

If you are about to get married, you need to take this information on board. Getting married is not the end, it is the start and you will need to keep reminding yourself about how happy and why you were so happy before you got married.

My comments:

I remembered being guilty of the paragraphs in red. That was after aqish was born, I felt content with my life, and I remembered all I cared about was my daughter and the house. My ikan is there for me emotionally, physically too but it wasn’t as exciting as our first months of mariage. What I felt important was that the house has to be in order for me to really enjoy the night, which was very seldom.. And, I remembered those days, we always fought. On the littlest things.

Yes, I am embarrased to blurt this all but I think it is a very good advice, i.e. to keep the ‘kepang’ ß my school mates know what I mean here… even after some time of mariage. Bukan nak kate my marriage is boring, its just I found it to be soo true, now that I am so excited to bring back the romance back into our mariage. I left contentment behind me. I hope it last. Da x mau take my hubs for granted. He’s there like when I was first infatuated by him. Eager to tell him what a day I had, his day.

I remembered talking to Elin on this- she’s getting married (I didn’t spoil your surprise, did i?). Anyway, I think it is something really good to ponder. I like it now when I acted as though during dating dulu2. to put an effort of going out. KESIMPULAN die adalah- don’t ever feel the contentment. Be exciting. And, I think I read some where, that in order to make your marriage happy, make sure your purpose of marriage is to make your spouse happy with expecting nothing in return. Ikhlas lah kirenye. I agree to this, eventhough sometimes it may be harder than it sound, but just keep in mind, always.

I am trying my best to.

belated mother's day wishes...

2010-06-07T14:55:00.001+08:00

I received this this morning. Apparently aqish’s school program of visiting to the post office last Thursday was to post their mother’s day card to the mommies. How sweet.

I remembered aqish brought back some paper cuttings on the week of mothers day last time, but she never said they were doing any sort of ‘cards or crafts’ for mothers.. J how sweet to receive a letter in the mail box.. from my daughter…

I never thot that the day I hang my kids’ drawings- master pieces is today. I always thot that it’ll be when I am at least 30+. Eh, wait. I am already 30. LOL.

i lost.

2010-06-04T15:07:00.001+08:00

I lost to my own battle. I bought 2 JM books this lunch and planning to read on my way back. Kompem habis during the weekends.

I seriously want to rest at least a month before I go back reading JM. But as I was reading an interview with JM on double standards, I got to have it. Based on a true story- her mom’s.

However, to take advantage of the promotional price, I had to take 2:- Double Standards & Kingdom of Dreams.

Nak berenti wehhh.. I want to look for Clapton & Pattie Boyd’s autobiography. really